My husband called to see if we could talk this pm. Once he got home, he told me that he realized that he had been arrogant. He was so hurt and had made he decision to leave. He was determined that he was not going to back out. He said that at first he was resentful at my kindness and love. He was like- "why now?- after all these years" As the days progressed, he continued to look for a place to rent, and was trying to talk to anyone else that he could just to get away from me. He said that he believed that his kids would be fine and it would not hurt them. As the days progressed and Mother's Day came to an end, he was starting to feel ashamed at how he was acting. At work, he felt uneasy all day and his boss came to tell him that he was going somewhere. It was related to something he had done over the weekend and he said at that moment he realized- He was making a mistake. This is the wrong pathway. He was fearful that I would not forgive him for some of his actions over the past week. Only with God's grace- I was able to show him unconditional love and forgiveness. I realize that I have rotteness to his bones and not a joy for him. I have been sowing bad crops for years and I have asked God to help me plant the fruit that he wants me to bear. I realize that my journey has just begun and I will need to look to God first his guidance. I am so thankful for his mercy and love.
Now with these understandings. Compare to your relationship with Christ. And look for those areas that Christ is looking for in you. This way you can grow deeper into a relationship with Christ.