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Today, I took a step or two towards moving on. I removed all of this photos from the house and from work. I'm to a point now that I don't want to look at them and it just reminds me that the happy couple in those photos doesn't exist anymore...

Well, he’s not coming back. He has seen a paralegal and given me our options for moving forward. That conversation didn’t go well and I emotionally reverted back to the old me of crying and reminding him of the commitment he made the day that he married...

There has been so much floating around in my head lately, I can't seem to settle and write. I am still in that place of sadness and depression. I still don't want to do anything but curl up on the couch, eat and watch TV and it's begining...

It's been a couple of weeks since I have written and the days are getting harder to take one at a time. The not so bright future seems to loom over me. I am feeling much more depressed these days and I tend to not want to do anything but sleep and...

Last night, I had a long conversation with T over the phone. I started out by wanting to repeat the Day 4 - Love is Thoughtful phone call and just call to see how he was doing and if there was anything I could do for him. It had been a long time since...

Someone sent me this to me a couple weeks ago. It's a short (16 min) feel good film. For me, it shows how the power of being positive can affect other people. May it inspire each of us to learn to be or stay positive in this difficult time. http:...

Today was a difficult day and a test to my Day 7 dare, Love Believes the Best. it seems that when ever the subject of this other woman comes up, my emotions always take me to the worst place posssible. I have always had a feeling that since he left me...

I woke up this morning with two very different thoughts and as my mind tried to go back to sleep, it wandered in and out of both thoughts and sparked a wide range of emotions. I finally decided that I needed to get up and write. So here it goes... Where...

He has been gone 3.5 months. It's been 3 weeks since I gave him the movie and book. I have done a good job of not bugging him about it and giving him time to think about it and consider it. But I'm begining to feel like the longer I give him "space"...

I spent the weekend camping with OUR friends, in OUR RV, in a place that WE used to go to. I missed him. I wondered if he missed being there, does he miss our friends, our life together and then I wondered if he missed me. He hasn't said he misses...

On day one, I learned patience. My task was to not say anything negative. While T wasn't home and we didn't talk much, saying negative things wasn't an issue. So I decided to work on not thinking negatively. Throughout this process I think...

2/6/09 11:30 am Today just goes to show that all the lessons learned in the first 40 days CANNOT be forgotten and each and every "task" has to become part of your daily routine. T is coming to get the dog for the weekend (DINK version of child...

Yesterday was a difficult day. I have been making plans for upcoming camping trips all with the hope that maybe things will be different with us by then and that he will be on the trip with me. I asked him about the dates to be sure that it was ok that...

Since the first time I heard about the Love Dare and then began my journey, I have heard people talk about what a great idea it is but they just don't have the time to focus on it. This simply FLOORS ME yet I can sort of understand it. When our counselor...

Well it has been almost a week since I gave T the movie and the book. I planned to give it to him by driving to his work and leaving it in his truck. I was a nervous wreck driving down there and even moreso when I pulled into the parking lot. I found...

I bought the movie today and before giving it to my husband, I decided to watch it one more time. It was as powerful the second time around as it was the first. Early on, I began to recognize that so many of my words and thoughts echo that of the movie...

TODAY’S DARE: Write out a renewal of your vows and place them in your home. Perhaps, if appropriate, you could make arrangements to formally renew your wedding vows before a minister and with family present. Make it a living testament to the value of...

TODAY’S DARE: Spend time in personal prayer, then write a letter of commitment and resolve to your spouse. Include why you are committing to this marriage until death, and that you have purposed to love them no matter what. Leave it in a place that your...

TODAY’S DARE: Ask yourself what your mate would want if it was obtainable. Commit this to prayer, and start mapping out a plan for meeting some (if not all) of their desires, to whatever level you possibly can. Financially, I think he would love to have...

TODAY’S DARE: Ask your spouse if you can begin praying together. Talk about the best time to do this, whether it’s in the morning, your lunch hour, or before bedtime. Use this time to commit your concerns, disagreements, and needs before the Lord. Don...

TODAY’S DARE: Commit to reading the Bible every day. Find a devotional book or other resource that will give you some guidance. If your spouse is open to it, see if they will commit to daily Bible reading with you. Begin submitting each area of your life...

TODAY’S DARE: Find a marriage mentor—someone who is a strong Christian and who will be honest and loving with you. If you feel that counseling is needed, then take the first step to set up an appointment. During this process, ask God to direct your decisions...

TODAY’S DARE: Find a specific, recent example when your spouse demonstrated Christian character in a noticeable way. Verbally commend them for this at some point today. Everyday, he demonstrates what a good man he is, although I haven't seen it personally...

TODAY’S DARE: Recognize that your spouse is integral to your future success. Let them know today that you desire to include them in your upcoming decisions, and that you need their perspective and counsel. If you have ignored their input in the past,...