its Day 3, he still ignores me the whole time
I took grandma and my son to Kindercare to check out the preschool program, they said my son cant get in preschool yet but toddler program....feel like totally waste my time to go visit because they said he can enroll into preschool program on the phone
Anyways i took them to panera bread, its the place that me and my husband used to go all the time
i miss him with the fact that we eat together and talk together
i feel so frustrated that he ignores me....this feeling is horrible
then i went to the base was thinking to get him the sunglasses so it will fulfill the day 3 schedule
i tried them on, but i keep thinking he is so picky that he wont like the sunglesses that i pick
and i m with grandma and son they are just kind of rushing me to go, i cant even really pick something for him
and if i told grandma that i m buying something for him, she is going to yell at me
at the end i only bought my son a new sunglasses and thats all...didnt get his....for some reason i just bought the pickle for my husband, something that he likes to eat, will this work? and maybe i should just leave him a note say i was thinking about him like that?
i dont know...feel its hard already...if he actually talk to me or call me i think i will feel better....
at night after he worked, he only cares about his car, his car overheated, so i told him that i have coolant if he wants it, he came over and get it
he did not even notice i cut my hair
when i asked if he still want me and my son move back there, he said he doesnt know because i make him mad, so officially he is telling me that he doesnt want us to move back.....
he doesnt want us, so why i keep doing this love dare? is it worth to do it???? i feel once again very horrible, i feel so bad for my son, i feel i have been so bad to my own family....why i love a person that never love me and i thought he did...i m so confused and frustrated.....i do wish god just tell me if this guy worth me to do all this to him?
Your seeking comfort from your spouse. The dare is the journey with you and Christ. You can never be comforted by seeking satisfaction from things of this world. Check your messages. I replied the journey to you.
You're focusing on your man.
I know...blah, blah, blah. I had that said to me constantly in the beginning...and I still need the reminder. Of course you're looking at your man....you LOOOOOOOVE him, you WAAAAAANT him...but stop.
Tell God where you are (He already knows). Tell Him to soften your heart so you can comprehend what He has for you. Start there, sister. And, read the appendix in the book...alot.