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Depression. I need prayers.

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The idea of leaving and having no idea if I still have a marriage to return to is taking it's toll on me more than I have expected. I cannot wait for everything to be over. I prefer to be the one who says good bye but this time I dont even want to. Two days  ago my husb celebrated his bday. He had a lot of guests and partied till morning. I sent him cake and gave him a gift and he said thanks. That was just it. And I am OK surprisingly. Probably because I was used to not being able to celebrate his bday with him even before. He prefers to be with friends than family. 

Going back. I am just living my life on a day to day basis. I am exhausted. I am scared. I know God is there but I still cant help bit feel sad. 

Anyway, a friend of mine advised me to do anything I feel for hubs even if i will look stupid. She told me to do it before I leave. She told me to allow myself be stupid for once for LOVE. So that if I start anew there are no what ifs. I still dont know what to do exactly but I do have one idea in mind which I am asking all of you to pray for me. I will visit him at his work place tomorrow so I can talk to him personally. I will invite him to go out of town with me before I leave for old time's sake. I dont really think he'd say yes but I do hope he will. 


By the way, our graduation will be this saturday. I asked him to be there but he said no. He said he is busy and he doesnt want people to see us together anymore. 



  • Princess, I will be praying for you.  If I've come to understand anything through this journey for me, it's that no amount of space or time can get in the way of what God wants to do for those who trust Him.  Don't let the distance that will be between you and your husband discourage you into believing God can't still work miracles in your marriage.  You have to keep standing, though!  You have to keep believing!  You have to keep praying!  Pray!  Pray! Pray!  and do not believe the lies the enemy will bombard your mind with!  He is a liar!  He hates you, your husband, your marriage!  He hates God so much he will try to destroy us because he knows it hurts God to see us succumb to his schemes.  Don't give the enemy that satisfaction!  Stand in your bedroom and declare out loud that you will stand for your marriage and your husband no matter what!  Say it out loud that your trust is in God and not the circumstances you see with your physical eyes!   When we speak truth out loud, I believe with all my heart it settles it deep in our hearts and becomes ingrained in our thinking.  It's like when Jesus called to Peter to get out of the boat and come to Him.  Peter was doing well as long as he kept his eyes on Jesus.  The minute he looked at the waves crashing around him, he began to sink.  We don't see what God sees.  What looks like chaos to us, from His vantage point is order moving toward the purpose He's working out in us.

    Hang in there, Princess!  Don't give up!  God will fight for you!

  • Princess,  I am praying for you and I am so proud of you girl!  Congratulations!  God has a wonderful life for you waiting in your new town.  This is a time to take pride in your accomplishments.  I know it hard.  But God is with you to order your steps.  Let go of what your husband is doing and how he is acting.  God has so much better for you.

  • Congrats on all you have accomplished.  

    so your husband likes spending time with all his good friends.  and not family so much.  There will be a trial he faces at some point.  and he will find out his friends really aren't his friends when he needs them the most. but are friends when there is alcohol, parties, and not the need to actually help someone in need.

    And then, pray he turns to Christ.  Then he may see what you have been shining in his eyes. Christ's light.  

    With hope and faith, in our God, all is possible.  

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