Well, yesterday didn't go as well as I thought it would. I did have a wonderful morning with the Lord, but not hearing from my husband all day (he was out of town) and having a sick son didn't help things. I think God revealed to me that He is dealing with my husband because he was really grouchy, I truly believe he is under extreme conviction. But I didn't help either, had a nervous moment over one of our kids and couldn't reach him (it really wasn't an emergency, now that I look at it) and I kept calling, he was working like always and snapped at me. I do sometimes think I am having a nervous breakdown. So the evening came and my nerves just got worse. I prayed alot and then had some nightmares...just an overall bad night. Woke up and just realized I'm going to try to not be the one to constantly call or email him. He rarely calls or emails me because I'm the one doing it. So I thought I am just going to step back and let him approach me for a change. It was hard but God gave me the ability to do it this morning. He texted me first, I did ask him to stop by and we talked for a very brief moment and he hugged me twice (that never happens), I gave him a CD of pictures of the kids that he had been wanting and a piece of our son's birthday cookie since he didn't get any of it. He actually said thank you with sincerity afterwards, that meant alot. I know God is working, He is showing me all the time. Unfortunately I get that dangon doubt in my head and have to ask God to show me again. He called me at lunchtime just to check up on me, and I have only emailed him once. Staying out of the way today is really helping me. Its hard, but God is giving me the ability to do it. So after really making some progress, I had a bump in the road last night, but that's ok, God is still in control and working! Just gotta keep praying!
Well atleast he is giving you sum type of attention. i get none frum mine :( only to accuse me of stuff or blame me for why we r not together. i get no kind of "hugs".. nothing. He is completely blocking himself from me. It is very very hard.. Hard to believe we been together for 2 years and its so easy to b cold with me. It hurts.. Not even me giving him his space to see if he will come around is working. Check out my Day 7 post :/
dont be a doubt thomas as quoted in the bible. Just trust in your belief. I was in the similar situation with the texting thing. Christ made very clear to have a personal and eye contact with your spouse instead of via texting. Just like Jesus did BC by travelling and meeting all kinds of people. :-)
Keep praying and keep showing love when the oppurtunity presents itself.Foucus on God.Believe that God can and will restore your marriage.Praying and standing with you.