Today was a difficult day for me. Something was just not
right from the word go. I accomplished a lot at work, considering that the
power was of for the better part of the day. My husband was distant.
I Skype’d him this morning to ask how he slept, since he has
not been sleeping well the last week. He said he was feeling good, but
something was just off, so I did not push it too much. Later in the day we
talked again, and I asked his if he was off with me, but he said not at all. I
started wondering why he was weird with me, and then I wondered if the other
woman was maybe at work today. He is off with me some days for no reason, and I
wonder if those are the days she is there? Friday’s and Mondays seem to be the
norm. I got so upset with myself, for even thinking that, but it kept haunting
me. (satan’s temptation) I went home earlier and took the time I had to pray.
The rest of the afternoon went fine, I went and bought our daughter some
thermal underwear, since all the ones she has was too short. Hubby phoned and
asked where I was, told him I was shopping and then he asked if he must pick up
our son, to which I said no, that I was on my way there as soon as I’m done.
Then he asked about our daughter, and I said, I did not pick her up, because he
comes past her school from work, I assumed he would (like he did the entire
week so far, but I didn’t say that), and he said he thought I picked her up! I
was close to home, so I suggested that I come pick him up, then we can get the
kids together. He agreed and we did. I apologised for the misunderstanding and
he was also very apologetic. We got the kids on time and all went well the rest
of the afternoon.
He seemed in a good mood, despite the misunderstanding. I
kept wondering why he was so different with me since he got home and something
that would have upset him greatly in the past, he seemed to look over. I
thought maybe he was trying to make up for a guilty conscience. Satan kept
pestering me all through the day. I kept praying every chance I had. I did not
find comfort the way I needed, but I did enough not to say things, not to take
control and voice my thoughts because I knew this is probably all in my head
As for the dare, hubby and I do value each other’s opinion,
and as a rule we rarely make decisions without discussing it first. I found it
very strange that we miscommunicated today. It is very unlike us, which just
makes me more suspicious that his mind was somewhere else.
I know it is on me, and somehow, I’m preventing Christ from
comforting me, even though I go to prayer.
It is more than rayer to have the relationship with Christ. It is praise, it is devotion, it is allowing Him to mold you in His image each day. Remember you are to lead your heart. You did a great job of that today not allowing your thoughts to control your emotions, in turn controlling you.
Now remember when you pray, always start with the praises that Christ has blessed you with. And throughout the day it never hurts to praise Him, to ask Him, to seek Him through all you do.
Thanks, and I know at this stage all I'm doing is asking, asking asking. I need to also focus on the good, and praise, praise, praise. It is easy for me to go to prayer. I have always spoken to God throughout the day. At my desk, in the car, even in the loo :-), because sometimes that is the only place I can escape to to be alone with Him. Admittedly, I do forget to praise when I feel far from Him. I will try to incorporate praising as a way of starting each prayer. Thank you.
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That is pretty good Jenn, thanks!