Today I will
be held accountable. I wish that my Love dare book would arrive soon, but our postal
services are on strike. Thank God for wonderful friends online that keeps me in
check when I lose focus. I lost focus. I pray when I need God, but forget him
when things go well. But what I realized is that when I think things are going
well, the moment I forget to praise, they already start falling apart!
to fill my voids with my husband. Voids that he does not even know I have, so really,
he can’t fill it!
the other hand has been with me, every step of the way. Every disappointment,
every hurt, every tear, every joy! He knows me inside and out. God created me,
he knows everything about me. He knows my doubts and fears.
I still have
not moved my focus from my husband to Christ! Take the leap! "He calls us to launch out
further and deeper, to places where we cannot depend on our own experience and
abilities. He puts us in places where we must depend entirely on Him." –
Thank you Jenn :-)
I have this
emptiness that can only be filled by Christ. I’m a Christian, I do my prayer
and devotions daily, pray al through the day. I have Christian friends like you
that help me on this journey. Many times I see myself in your journals, as if
it was written for me/by me.
I talk too
much, say unnecessary things, and try to explain too much. I always try and
explain myself! Because people just don’t get me. But Christ GETS ME! Over the
past 23 days, I have never felt more loved. Not just by Christ or my husband,
but by strangers too, sharing their journey.
learned that I have been blessed in many ways and I need to give praise more
often. See God in the little things; hold on to Him no matter what.
climbing out of this hole. I’m going to keep on praying in good times or bad,
and I will give Praise to God, in good times or bad, because I have a lot to be
thankful for and because I need His help still.
I will try :-) to talk less and listen more. Feel
His Love for me and let his blessings fill my voids. I will stop making excuses
and finding reason why it is difficult to attend church, and make it my mission
to overcome the difficulties and seek Christ.
I will take
more initiative when it comes to my husband – what I want, and not expect him
to just know. But I will love him as my number 2.
taken the lead! I will look to Him first, pray when I feel emptiness setting
in. I know I can cry in His lap when things get too much for me, as I’m sure
this declaration is bound to attract Satan’s attention. But I will not fear.
God is with me.
When I lose
focus, I will remind myself that Christ is in charge now, pray, focus on Him.
Seek Him in all I do. Praise Him in all I do well!
I have followed your journey and most say that I am amazed with you. (I am with all who I follow here!)
In your post I see something new in you. I am not sure what it is but it is good. Abide in Him and He will abide in you!
The change from following your heart to leading it is not an easy one. All your life you have been taught the opposite.
So now, allow Christ to mold you in His image, and each day will become one that has comfort and happiness no matter the situation.
Thanks JasonW. You know there is a difference between knowing what you should do and actually doing it. It has taken me a long time to make that leap. I do feel different, NEW... It feels good too! LOL
And Sean you are right, as always, the change is hard. but making this leap, I'm already feeling happier and more fulfilled, just by making this conscious decision.
You must make the decision EVERY DAY. Obedience. Obedience. Obedience.