Today I will be held accountable. I wish that my Love dare book would arrive soon, but our postal services are on strike. Thank God for wonderful friends online that keeps me in check when I lose focus. I lost focus. I pray when I need God, but forget him when things go well. But what I realized is that when I think things are going well, the moment I forget to praise, they already start falling apart!

I’m trying to fill my voids with my husband. Voids that he does not even know I have, so really, he can’t fill it!

Christ on the other hand has been with me, every step of the way. Every disappointment, every hurt, every tear, every joy! He knows me inside and out. God created me, he knows everything about me. He knows my doubts and fears.

I still have not moved my focus from my husband to Christ! Take the leap! "He calls us to launch out further and deeper, to places where we cannot depend on our own experience and abilities. He puts us in places where we must depend entirely on Him." – Thank you Jenn :-)

I have this emptiness that can only be filled by Christ. I’m a Christian, I do my prayer and devotions daily, pray al through the day. I have Christian friends like you that help me on this journey. Many times I see myself in your journals, as if it was written for me/by me.

I talk too much, say unnecessary things, and try to explain too much. I always try and explain myself! Because people just don’t get me. But Christ GETS ME! Over the past 23 days, I have never felt more loved. Not just by Christ or my husband, but by strangers too, sharing their journey.

I have learned that I have been blessed in many ways and I need to give praise more often. See God in the little things; hold on to Him no matter what.

Today, I’m climbing out of this hole. I’m going to keep on praying in good times or bad, and I will give Praise to God, in good times or bad, because I have a lot to be thankful for and because I need His help still.

I will try :-) to talk less and listen more. Feel His Love for me and let his blessings fill my voids. I will stop making excuses and finding reason why it is difficult to attend church, and make it my mission to overcome the difficulties and seek Christ.

I will take more initiative when it comes to my husband – what I want, and not expect him to just know. But I will love him as my number 2.

Christ has taken the lead! I will look to Him first, pray when I feel emptiness setting in. I know I can cry in His lap when things get too much for me, as I’m sure this declaration is bound to attract Satan’s attention. But I will not fear. God is with me.

When I lose focus, I will remind myself that Christ is in charge now, pray, focus on Him. Seek Him in all I do. Praise Him in all I do well!