Kids were up early; we finished up to take my daughter to
therapy. Hubby went to work. We had a busy morning, visiting with some friends,
trying to see some houses that we are keen on renting, but they were all taken.
I prayed about it. It must be a sign. I trust that God will provide for us,
exactly what we need at the price we can afford. But I will keep looking until
He gets us to the place we need.
Today I feel “far” away from my husband again. No reason,
but when he gets up in the morning, I can tell from his body language if we are
going to connect that day or not. Today is an off day. I don’t understand it.
But I’m reminded in my dare to trust Christ for not just salvation, but for
I’m reminded how lost I am without Him. And yes, I am a
sinner and I need Him to Change my heart and to save me by His grace!
You need to lead your heart to Him....
I don't know why it is so difficult. I have given my heart to Christ, but (and really there should be no but's) I have such a hard time trusting. How is it that I can not trust Christ with my life / my heart completely. I know he is the only ONE who will never hurt me, but I struggle with it every day! I know this to be the only way, so why do I not just let it go! Like you said, instead of fighting all the time, surrender to Christ! I remember the date 4 March 1992, that I went on my knees and accepted Christ as my personal saviour and asked him into my heart and to forgive my sins and wash me clean. So why can I not just surrender. You can not confess your are one with Christ if your actions says different. What am I doing wrong? Am I just being human? I want to do this, I try every day! but when I reflect on my day, it is clear that I have taken back control.
Are you feeding all your spiritual needs? Fellowship, worship, prayer etc,,,,
I'm sure I'n not doing as well as I could. I'm having my prayer and devotion time, but it is mostly alone. I would love to go to church more.