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Day 8 love is not jealous

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I know I am supposed to journal here for each of these. But I have been so defeated on day 5, 6, and 7. Today I am truly just at a low point in everything. This dare comes at one of the hardest times because I am jealous. Jealous of the time anyone gets besides me. Jealous that I am not even being spoken too anymore. I know this is who I am, she knows this is who I have been. I received no response on dare 5 6 or 7. Nothing to fix that bothers her. No response at all on saying something good. Didn't even get a hello when she came in from work last night. 

Today I will attack this goal, which is going to be very hard when the person won't even speak to you, let alone be in the same room. I know she is hurting, but she would rather be as far from me as possible than to just reach out 

 

  • I know how hard it is when they don't respond. Or that it seems hopeless. Just keep praying and hoping and putting your trust in God alone. God has this and he will never leave you nor forsake you. You are learning how to love unconditionally. Remember love never gives up, it never loses faith, and is always hopeful. Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. You can do this! Just don't give up!

  • When a dare is very difficult, when you get no response, when you feel defeated, when you see no hope:  these are the times that offer the most potential for growth.  So, take this gift from God and grow in Him.  Pray, read.  Seek Him, His strength, His endurance, His wisdom in all of this mess.  Because without Him you can not continue, but He will carry you because you will let Him.

  • Thank God for her just not talking to you, not responding, not saying hello.  Because it could and may still get much worse where she goes from not greeting you to spewing venom all over the place.  The silent is much easier to take than the verbal attacks.  

    Things often get worse before it gets better.  I am not saying it will, and do not expect it to happen.  

    You are building a foundation in finding complete peace through Christ, no matter what she chooses to do or say, and this peace can lead to you finding joy in this trial.  

    keep doing a dare a day, no more, no less.

  • Hey Paul,

    I know where you at brother.  Many of my dares go unanswered, or even acknowledged, but it makes it so much sweeter when she does respond to something.  It also taught me something really important in my walk with Christ.  It made me realize all the times he had reached out to me, or done something in my life that I didn’t acknowledge him for.  How many times I would start my day and not say hello or good morning to him.  Since all I have is really his just loaned to me for the period of time that he sees fit, do I say anything to him when I come home?  Thank him for the home that I have been blessed with.  Don’t get me wrong, I still struggle with trying to fix my marriage and making this whole journey about fixing what I broke.  When I turn my eyes to God and ask what am I supposed to learn in this lord.  That is when he shows me things like I mentioned before.  He shows me that the actions of my wife are not all that different than my own in my relationship with him.  Yet, and this is Key to me.  He loves me anyways! He pursues me anyways. He provides for me anyways.  He is there for me when I cry out anyways.  How amazing it is, when I can stay in that understanding, and his grace for me.  I become emotional many times when I think of him knowing I was going to commit the sins of my life at the time he went on the cross 2000 some years ago.  Know that, he did it anyways, and went through all he went through, for me.  If Jesus can do that, and bare that big of a load, torture, humiliation, and give his life.  I can with his help handle some rejection, or pain of her actions.  Because Jesus loves me this way, I must love her this way.  For the bible tells me so..

    Hang in there Brother.

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