Collaborate without boundaries
  • The Tree, the crow and the dove

    • 9 Comments
    I have spent a lot of time on my deck through the seasons of his affair...spring, summer, fall, winter, spring again and now going into summer. There is a tree in my neighbors back yard that constantly holds my gaze. When the leaves are flittering on...
  • Letting go vs. letting love show?

    • 8 Comments
    In this place of trust and faith I am filled more during the day with peace and faith than with doubts...but they do creep in briefly before the Spirit takes control and removes them from me. I have given him so much space and don't really let what...
  • The God roller coaster

    • 8 Comments
    We have often talked about the roller coaster of emotions with our spouses, but looking back over the more than year and a half I have noticed the "other" roller coaster I have found myself on. It thankfully doesn't have the steep drops...
  • Thankful in a dangerous time

    • 5 Comments
    God works in ways that are higher than ours. I have seen this over and over again. Most recently He made it clear to me through events that I had to get out of the way to let Him work on my hubs. I kept getting in the way, trying to control in loving...
  • Feeling like a fledgling in faith but THANKFUL!

    • 8 Comments
    I did not file the extension and the case will be dismissed for lack of progress. Praise God! The girls and I went to Indy for the weekend to see family and my hubs. I had gotten a hotel room for a night for the 2 of us and he kept telling me he didn't...
  • A new hope...and a choice to make

    • 6 Comments
    God continues to be good to me even in my weakness. Yesterday, my hubs told me that he broke up with the OW. Well, he actually went on to say that she broke up with him - she leaves for Egypt tomorrow for 2 weeks. I feel different this time - before I...
  • His ways are Higher than our ways

    • 4 Comments
    He is still with the OW...driving to Indy with her as we speak but a lot has happened. Last week, he started texting with a new woman from Indy where he will be the next month. 3 hours nonstop. I called him that night to let him know I knew. Then when...
  • Fearfully in the cave...

    • 17 Comments
    Here I am...in the cave like David..fearful. Feeling unworthy, not enough and falling short in every way, and lacking faith. Oh how small a mustard seed, and yet how large it is to even try to have a small amount of faith. I am seeking though. First,...
  • Who's on first?

    • 3 Comments
    Hi friends...been a while. I have continued to be in a struggle. I have pretty much been still, but I have been asking myself who is on first? God? My husband? I have my morning quiet time and been talking to God all day long, but my thoughts are constantly...
  • What does trusting in the Lord mean...

    • 3 Comments
    Trusting in the Lord with all your heart. I have asked God to reveal to me what stands in the way of growing closer to Him and that is what He has revealed. I really believe that is why my struggle continues. My devotions often refer to the fact that...
  • Holding myself accountable

    • 10 Comments
    I have a confession... I cried last night...it had been an emotional couple of days between the 1 year mark of the passing of my hubs mum. Then the next day of my hubs birthday. I stayed still with my hubs and stayed positive but I broke last night in...
  • Honest with myself

    • 3 Comments
    Today is his birthday. Tomorrow morning I take him to the airport for his 12 day work trip and then I leave the day before he gets back for 7 days. I have mostly been at peace, but today I am not so much. It is hard when I truly value every day we have...
  • Keep Your Eyes On Me!...and the Ocean.

    • 4 Comments
    Sharing today's devotional from Jesus Calling, in hopes it brings peace to others as much as it has me today. "Keep your eyes on me! Waves of adversity are washing over you, and you feel tempted to give up. As your circumstances consume more...
  • Thankful

    • 8 Comments
    I thought it would be better to start a new post rather than continue on the last thread. I am so thankful for you all. Tim, I have listened and lay down in green pastures. Man was I "tired" and needing rest. I think I didn't know how wound...
  • Backsliding

    • 16 Comments
    I'm not sure what to really say today as I think I am more just expressing feelings here so I don't lose it at home. I am just so sad. I see a husband that cannot give the OW up - yes, they are still talking every day. I see a husband that does...
  • Mixed Blessings

    • 7 Comments
    Well, I kind of lost it when he told me Thursday that his flight was Tuesday not Monday. We texted back and forth and a quick call - not good conversation. Friday went by and in the evening I was checking my email and he emailed me "Changed flight...
  • Mountains and meeting Him there

    • 3 Comments
    What if the mountains in front of us where placed there for us to show someone else they can be moved? I came across this simple statement this morning and it has had me thinking. What if they are...we all know God uses us, other people in our life, for...
  • Attune yourself to His Presence and what He is already doing

    • 5 Comments
    Yesterday i was under attack - I knew it would be the most difficult day of his 9 day trip. I had the expectation that he would at least text me in the morning after taking the huge step of calling me from there the day before. I texted him in the afternoon...
  • A simple message to take to heart

    • 8 Comments
    God is there. You don't have to be. When we can't sleep - God is Up. We don't have to be. So yesterday he flew to be with the OW for 9 days. I couldn't help but dance a little in my soul when he sent me a text that his flight was delayed...
  • Gifts from God

    • 4 Comments
    First, here is a great devotional today from "Jesus Calling"... Seek My Face more and more. You are really just beginning your journey of intimacy with Me. It is not an easy road, but it is a delightful and privileged way; a treasure hunt. I...
  • Cars

    • 9 Comments
    Since my last post I have been reflecting often on if I am trying to expect and speed his car up to mine. I am guilty...part of leading with emotions and the flesh instead of trusting God. Realizing that I have backed off on the expectations. Also, we...
  • Serving 2 masters lately

    • 3 Comments
    Hi friends...it has been a while since posting but wanted to check in. He is still with the OW and going there for another 6 day trip later this week - over Valentines Day. That day doesn't have meaning to him as it has always been a Hallmark holiday...
  • Remembering Who I Am

    • 7 Comments
    Hi friends...it's been almost a month since last posting...a difficult month. He left to go spend a week before Christmas with the OW (yet again his "last trip" there). Then he drove his sister and nephew back to our house for Christmas...
  • Still in the wilderness

    • 9 Comments
    I haven't posted in a while as I have really been struggling standing at the crossroads. He is still with her. He says he just has to get it out of his system and he feels like he is, and that it is selfish of him and he is putting physical needs...
  • Reality Check at the Crossroads

    • 4 Comments
    Well, since my last post he told her Monday that it is over. They still talk every day. They are still friends on social media, but he won't accept my friend request again - and she is the one who abused social media by posting a pic on his wall of...
Page 1 of 4 (95 items) 1234