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Day 5 - Church helps

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I went to sleep with some Christian TV playing all night in hopes of something depositing in to me even while I sleep.  I woke up about 4:45am.  I turned on some more christian word tv.  I then began reading my Word and praying in the spirit.  As I started getting ready for church, i played some christian music while i took a long shower and began to cry out to God.  I was releasing a heavy burden, pain, frustration, and sorrow, but also worshiping.  My wife and chlldren were also going to church too.  Unfortunately, she didnt want to ride together, but it was ok.  I was just glad were in the same place, getting, the same Word.  During praise and worship i began to cry again in worship ( i guess i had a lot to get out LOL).  Our pastor gave a good Word about God's unconditional love and even spoke on loving a person who has a hardened heart and loving your enemies.  (i know she is not my enemy, but she treats me like i am).  As for the daily dare, I didnt ask her the 3 things that bothered her.  I felt i already knew from an earlier conversation and i didnt want to nag her.  Here is are some things i know that irritate her:

1)  Not helping her around the house.  2) Putting others before her.  3) Lack of communication

I dont completely agree with them, but I'll pray and ask God to help me in those areas.  My current motto is: "Love unconditionally, look for nothing in return"  It's simple, yet challenging.  Praying for an even better day tomorrow.  Staying hopeful.

  • I do the same thing with Christian t.v. I have it on during the day to feed my spirit. When you talked about worship, I thought about how God's word says, "He inhabits the praises of His people." Praying about the 3 things your wife mentioned is good. God will direct you. Glad you are staying hopeful.

  • Some dares we are afraid to do for various reasons, and we justify not doing them as they are intended to do.  If you felt lead to the dares by Christ, or that  they truly are a journey for you to grow in Christ, then do the dare a day, no more, no less, just as they are intended to be done.  

    God may have  designed the dares to  fall exactly on the days you need to do them for  a reason.  

  • I feel like I am looking in a mirror. Your situation seems exactly like mine. My wife never wants to ride with me or the kids. She does go to church. She hears the messages condemning everything she is doing but it doesn't seem to faze her. I thought and worried about this for a long time but I came to realize just last week that God is working on her. It may take years but He is working. I can't say anything to change that but I can continue to worship Him and live my life according to His word and show her that I am not the same person that she "fell out of love" with.

    I did, however, ask her the day 5 question. She did not respond but I came up with my own list, like you did, of three things that I picked up from earlier conversations that I thought bothered her.

    We've been separated for seven months and I have cried so much that sometimes I think I can't possible cry anymore. But then the new Ed Sheeran song "Perfect" came out and it seems to come on the radio every time I get in the car. It makes me cry and cry and cry. Which is okay because I love my wife no matter what she does and the song invokes those feelings in me.

    I really do feel like my wife is my enemy right now especially because what my children see her doing affects them and I know it is wrong but she can't see that she is teaching them the wrong way to this.

    “But if you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them. And if you do good to those who do good to you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners do the same. And if you lend to those from whom you hope to receive back, what credit is that to you? For even sinners lend to sinners to receive as much back.  35 But love your enemies, do good, and lend, hoping for nothing in return; and your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High. For He is kind to the unthankful and evil.  36 Therefore be merciful, just as your Father also is merciful.

    Luke 6:32-36

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