Collaborate without boundaries

Day 25

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Wow what a day!  I was very down the day before and then the forgiveness day comes about.  God knows exactly what I need and when I need it, why am I so stubborn.  I read the day and thought this will be difficult for me to forgive not only my husband but myself for letting so much get in between us.  It took an entire day of praying and just talking to God about what I was holding on to.  It was a relief to be able to look at my husband when he came in and just talk.  I had no preconceived ideas of what to talk about just talk.  He was very unsure of my motivation but I assured him it was only to be his wife nothing more.  He and I talked but he said the other shoe will drop at any time I can just tell.  Well it never did and we did a couple of things together that he actually enjoyed.  It was nice to just hang out and not think about what he has said that was hurtful or what I have said that was hurtful.  We just got to be together as a couple.  Tomorrow (Today) we have a party to attend so I am unsure how that will unfold but I am going to let God handle the entire night.  I am tired of trying to be the one who has to be in control and I know God can do a much better job than I can.  I am still learning this "let go" idea as I enjoy being in control of everything but it is very stress relieving, albeit lonely at times.  I am glad I have a few people to encourage me at the low times.  Letting God fill in the lonely spots is very hard but I am getting there.

  • Don't we all like to control everything? It's how we are wired. Giving up control is getting closer to God. Learning to serve and give of yourself.

    Be thankful for the positive time you get to spend with your husband. Tell him you're thankful. Ask him daily if there is anything you can do for him

    “Let go of your concerns! Then you will know that I am God. I rule the nations. I rule the earth.”

    Psalm 46:10

  • I dont want to go against what others say, and not saying i am right, but while doing the dares and in this trial, our spouses often want space from us, so doing a dare a day no more, no less so often holds very true. Because doing more gets in there space so often.  but when a reoncilliation takes place or you are closer to that point, it would be nice to ask daily what you can do for your spouse.

    At the party, he may act cold, and that may be because he wants to show you he still doesn't trust the new you is really the new you.  He may want to justify his behavior after having a decent time talking to you yesterday by putting his wall up a little higher for a moment.  

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