08-23-2010 – Day 20/Part 2 – Love is Jesus Christ

So apparently I was a complete a$$ yesterday. I misread the entire the day. Laura and I sat down this morning and had a good talk. We were heading out to martial arts class today and I wanted to clear the air and get on the same page so we could have a good day. Laura told me that she tried very hard yesterday to give us ‘us’ time by calling me outside to sit on the swing together and talk and then again to spend time in the bedroom, talking before bed. She told me that I was upset with her and wouldn’t talk. She was right, what could I say? I apologized and told her that the day was stressful and that she was right, I didn’t see her attempts to get us together and was rude and inconsiderate. She hugged me and we ended up having a great day. On the way home she suggested we go out for dinner so we came home, showered and got the kids some pizza and went out for a date. We had a great evening, ate at a new Japanese restaurant and talked about everything, us, other people’s relationships and our future. I felt like the old Laura and I again. She did tell me that she loved me again and that I shouldn’t questions why, that it was her praying, her thinking and God’s plan that we are together. It sounded like wise advice to me. I am just thankful that we are still together through all this.

I have been feeling much better since handing my life over to God. I still get urges to check her e-mail, lean over her shoulder when she is on Facebook, but I am controlling these much better. I haven’t felt really jealous of anything she has said or done in a while now. God has calmed me and given me a better view and understanding of my marriage and my wife.

I am a newer Christian, I only gave myself to God in April (during the 1^st Love Dare) so I am still learning. Today’s dare asked me how I felt He has shown His love to me. That is easy! I prayed and He softened my wife’s heart and He has guided Laura and I back together. He has literally saved my life and my marriage. I prayed and He made huge changes in my life and continues to do so every day. I am amazed every day at the changes I have seen in my life since I allowed and welcomed God in. I am truly blessed.

Thank You God, for guiding my wife back to me. Thank You God, for changing me for the better, and allowing me to stay as a family with my wife and children. Thank You God, for giving me peace and making me calm, helping to eliminate my jealousy and self doubt. Thank You God, for making me happy again. Amen.

- Mike