08-23-2010 – Day 20/Part
2 – Love is Jesus Christ
So apparently I was a complete a$$ yesterday. I misread the
entire the day. Laura and I sat down this morning and had a good talk. We were
heading out to martial arts class today and I wanted to clear the air and get
on the same page so we could have a good day. Laura told me that she tried very
hard yesterday to give us ‘us’ time by calling me outside to sit on the swing
together and talk and then again to spend time in the bedroom, talking before
bed. She told me that I was upset with her and wouldn’t talk. She was right, what
could I say? I apologized and told her that the day was stressful and that she
was right, I didn’t see her attempts to get us together and was rude and
inconsiderate. She hugged me and we ended up having a great day. On the way
home she suggested we go out for dinner so we came home, showered and got the
kids some pizza and went out for a date. We had a great evening, ate at a new
Japanese restaurant and talked about everything, us, other people’s
relationships and our future. I felt like the old Laura and I again. She did
tell me that she loved me again and that I shouldn’t questions why, that it was
her praying, her thinking and God’s plan that we are together. It sounded like
wise advice to me. I am just thankful that we are still together through all
I have been feeling much better since handing my life over
to God. I still get urges to check her e-mail, lean over her shoulder when she
is on Facebook, but I am controlling these much better. I haven’t felt really
jealous of anything she has said or done in a while now. God has calmed me and
given me a better view and understanding of my marriage and my wife.
I am a newer Christian, I only gave myself to God in April
(during the 1st Love Dare) so I am still learning. Today’s dare
asked me how I felt He has shown His love to me. That is easy! I prayed and He
softened my wife’s heart and He has guided Laura and I back together. He has
literally saved my life and my marriage. I prayed and He made huge changes in
my life and continues to do so every day. I am amazed every day at the changes
I have seen in my life since I allowed and welcomed God in. I am truly blessed.
Thank You God, for guiding my wife back to me. Thank You
God, for changing me for the better, and allowing me to stay as a family with
my wife and children. Thank You God, for giving me peace and making me calm,
helping to eliminate my jealousy and self doubt. Thank You God, for making me
happy again. Amen.
Praise Him always.... Now, as a new Christian. Seek, and you shall find, knock and it shall be open to you, ask, and you shall receive.
This is how you get to know Him better. Always seek Him out. Always knock to get to His love and always ask for His direction.
And when you are doing things in His honor you can never go wrong.
God bless you and your wife. But the journey is just getting started.