Today has been a day, work was terrible, I tried to be patien and not get too aggravated. Then I come home to find out that something happened to all my passwords on my computer, my mom was at the house today with my daughter and I think she was using...

Yesterday proved to be an interesting day, after the car wash I went home and then went to work and he showed up at my job with the kids about an hours after i got there to get some "tea" they ended up staying and eating dinner. A lot of people...

Well update. Last nite he came home in a extra good mood he was on the phone with his best friend shawn the one who always seems to tell me things I should not know, they were on the phone talking about his bike, because once again his bike is broke and...

Well yesterday started out ok and then last night went bad again. I have been really focusing on myself and where I want to be on this journey and for the first time in the dares I have felt a lot more peace than I ever have. I have tried to stop always...

Today I am starting the dare over again, it helps me focus on my journey and gives me something to look forward to everyday. Rite now there is really not much to look forward to anymore. I am in such a frustrated mood today. Our truck is stil getting...

So this dareis very appropriate today. The day started alright the usual morning stuff, he told me to drive his car becuase he needed to use the truck to do lawnwork at his mom, then he went and picked up his daughter this afternoon. We spoke once on...

Well I made it thru Valentines day peacefully with my husband. He worked pretty late and when he got home I had dinner in the fridge for him I did not get him anything special I just made him a plate of what the kids and I had. I had his gift ( a superbowl...

This morning after I wrote my initial journal entry I went outside to find a gift bag in the front seat, he had bought me pair of sunglasses and a car phone charger system that also works as a blue tooth for phone calls and radio, not the kind of gifts...

Im up early on a saturday morning because #1 he just left to go on his trip this weekend and #2 now I cant sleep because I have a lot running thur my mind. The past few days he has been communicating a tiny bit more. Thursday nite he had to close at work...

I havent posted in a few days I have had a lot going on. I found out that my mom may have ovarian cancer. When I called him when I found out of course he did not answer but then I texted him and he he said oh I hope its not cancer. That was all my husband...

Tonight is a rough nite for me. Todays dare is easy, I have been completing this dare daily since round 1 always greeting him with love and kindness even when I am feeling the way I am tonight. Tonight he is at a Lingerie/pajama bike party, very disrepectful...

Dare completed. I contacted him from work today, I tried to call but it went to voicemail so I left him a message asking how he was doing and if he needed anything. He in on vacation this week and this morning I was going to take our daughter to my mothers...

After our conversation last night where he told me he did not want anything from us and our marriage, I have to admit I was shaken and upset about it. I prayed last night and tried not to let it get to me. He ended up coming home and doing his usual thing...

Well today is a hard day for me, I'm trying not to have any expectations at all from my husband but 8 years ago on Valentines day we started dating and 5 years ago our daughter was conceived on Valentines day. This past weekend was a little rough...

Last night started rough for me, but as the night went on and I settlee down and prayed and realized that spending the time with the kids was so much more important than what he mite be doing I settled down and found peace. The kids and I had a great...

Well today is day 10 and last night after I made my second post things got worse. I put our daughter to bed and then went into the bedroom to go to sleep and he literally said to me get out of the room you cant sleep in here if you do when we get the...

I wasnt going to post today with it being Easter sunday I was going to spend the day going to church and doing lots of praying but I decided to post becuase it is my way of venting. Yesterday did not get much better. Last nite I texted him twice from...

Today I am unable to complete my dare because hes not home and I doubt he will be home anytime soon. Today was my moms birthday and she wanted to go to hid restaurant to eat, imagine that so I took her. He sat with us while we were there eating and was...

I'm trying my best to not be discouraged by my husband rite now at this very moment. It seems like the only time he wants to speak to me is when he wants something or needs something. Like this past weekend when he was out of town, I never heard a...

Well the rest of the day did not go very well at all.. We both got home from work around the same time and we were outside playing with our daughter for awhile. she ended up falling down and scraping her hand not bad but it was bleeding and he yells across...

Today I woke up without any expectations from my husband. I already know that he does not want to celebrate our anniversary and he has been extra cold this week. Today is a pretty appropriate dare for the day. I will rewrite my vows today as I have done...

Dare complete. This morning I woke up and ironed his work shirt as my act of kindness. Last nite of course he did not talk to me at all, which is the normal thing he does when he is mad about something that I did. Of course this morning and today he has...

Dare completed. Last nite my husband went and watched his son play soccer so we didnt see him much at home and when he came home he didnt look like he wanted to be bothered. I asked him if he was feeling alright, he didnt answer, I left it alone and continued...

Well I havent posted in two days trying to keep focused and trying not to let my feelings control my thinking. Friday he communicated wtih me a little bit because he had to use my truck to pick up food for the clubs bbq on saturday. I didnt see him until...

I wish I would have read my dare for the day today before I even let my feet hit the floor. I should know the dares by heart by now but I dont. Last nite of coures my husband did he usual routine, I was off I should have picked up a shift at work but...