Well today is a hard day for me, I'm trying not to have any expectations at all from my husband but 8 years ago on Valentines day we started dating and 5 years ago our daughter was conceived on Valentines day. This past weekend was a little rough for me I had to do a lot of praying and a lot of keeping to myself and trying to do things without having any expectations of my husband. He came home saturday nite after going out of town with someone. My dad saw him walking home when he was coming to pick me up which was weird because all of the guys in the club know where we live so if he went with them they should have dropped him off. I had sent him a text telling him that my parents were no longer going to watch the kids while I worked the second job and when I came home he started a conversation wit me saying that he would not go anyplace anymore unless I was home to watch the kids. This was kind of surprising to me becuase he never has offered this before. The next morning he initiated sex to which he has not done in a long time. All of this of course raised some questions in my mind becuase he was not being the usual way that he is. Of course though sunday nite when he got home he was mean again and stayed to himself in the bedroom. Then last nite he sent me a text message saying I hope you did not get me anything for Valentines day because I dont want anything from you. This stung but I did not respond. Then today I did my dare, I know that he is having a busy day at the restaurant but I still called him and left a voice mail asking if there was anything I could do for him. A lot of memories and feeling today but I'm trying to pray thru.
One day it will seem funny to you how up and down he can get. Being mean one moment, then saying he will be home for the kids when need be the next.
When you feel down and sorry for yourself, realize how nuts he must feel going up and down in his emotions like a yo yo. And choose to feel sorry for him. then say a prayer of thanksgiving and a prayer to cover him.
Michelle just remember that you have a God who loves you so much that He chose to die for you. As you go through the dares you will get better at doing the dares without expectation. Regardless of how they respond you are doing these dares because you want to be a blessing to them. Just as Philippians 4:4 says "Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice." Regardless of how your spouse reacts thank God for His love for you. All you can do is control how you respond to situations and when you have feelings that are welling up inside of you and you feel like you want to burst, that is when you go to the Lord and ask Him if this is really how He would want you to respond.