Collaborate without boundaries

mdarby now MichelleD Day 6 round 5

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Today has been a day, work was terrible, I tried to be patien and not get too aggravated.  Then I come home to find out that something happened to all my passwords on my computer, my mom was at the house today with my daughter and I think she was using my laptop and did something because she left real quick when I got home.  It took me forever to get back on here but here I am. 

Today I am to find areas in where I am to react in a loving way.  This is the story of my life rite now. Today I woke up slightly frustrated feeling because it seems like we are drifting more and more apart. We barely speak, we sleep in seperate room, our whole house is basically divided like this, when we come home everyone goes their seperate ways. I spend a lot of time with my 4 year old daughter. This is the one joy of my day. My son is 12 and rarely wants to do anything with us but I try to include him. As for my husband he is like a roommate, only see him when he comes out to shower and eat. 

This morning he did not speak to me at all when I dropped him off. He did not repsond to my text about what time to pick him up so I sent him one saying will be there at 5 to get you. That was it nothing more. He got in the car, didnt speak and when we got home went into the shower and now in the room.  This is our life now. I should be thankful for the peace, I am, but I also miss our family being together and enjoying time together. 

I am choosing to react to this in love instead of anger. It has been 8 months, I try not to put a time frame on things. It has been a long time since we laughed together or I felt a genuine hug or smile from my husband. As the days go by he seems to get more distant and more cold, and I seem to become more patient and loving at least the best I can.

I want so bad to have a conversation with him about us, but I know that the time is not now. I am going to continue to pray and show him love and patience. I plan to continue to be a example of Gods love to him in hopes that one day he can experience the same love I receive from God. I pray that he will one day be open to it for his own sake.....

  • I am about to loose it with him again. I have to pray real hard for peace tonight. I just found out from his sister that he is planning on going to a bike club pajama party this saturday and it is a bad party where club women end up naked on stage and having sex with people outside. HE knows how I feel about this party so he is going to go because he knows I cannot say anything about it.  This is horrible I dont know what to do except pray and make sure that there is no one available to watch the kids while I work so he has no choice but to stay home.  

  • I think you should stop talking to his sister. Keep praying. I will pray for you too.

  • The sister seems like and the friend seem like they are possibly wanting to instigate.  You can protect your marriage.  oh, 900, a short prayer for the community and I will be back.

  • so you can protect your marraige by saying how it is not appropriate for anyone, yet alone a married man to go to these types of parties.  He won't like it and may go just to spite you.  

    It sounds like you have taken steps in finding peace with the living in the same house but separately arrangement he has imposed.  So, take your journey in Christ to the next level.  And really thank Him, praise His mighty name, sing songs of admiration to Him.  Whatever you can think of to do.  And then begin dwelling in His joy, the joy only He can provide.  The joy that is beyond all understanding.  This joy can be felt in the hurt, in the middle of the trial.  I dont know if one can remain in the pure blissful joyful feeling all the time or not.  I surely haven't.  But do live in His peace, feel the joy He offers.  Take the growth you feel you have gained to a new level in Him.  

    I remember thinking 7 months, when is she going to wake up an come to her senses and see that i ave changed.  Thinking 7 months is forever.  So your 8 months is a long time,but compared to eternity it is less than a blink of an eye.  Keep going in the journey.  

  • If he goes to the party, pray for the sanctity and unity of your marrriage.  Or however Sean worded it.  If you saw the movie about the prayer room or War Room or whatever it was called, recall the prayer of the wife while the husband was at the restaurant with another room.  pray fervently.  in fact, that may be the title of a book from the movie.  After praying, be in His peace and know it is in His hands.

  • If he goes to the party, pray for the sanctity and unity of your marrriage.  Or however Sean worded it.  If you saw the movie about the prayer room or War Room or whatever it was called, recall the prayer of the wife while the husband was at the restaurant with another room.  pray fervently.  in fact, that may be the title of a book from the movie.  After praying, be in His peace and know it is in His hands.

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