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  • On me knees praying today

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    This morning has been one of the worst I have had in a long itme. My husband had his wallet in the living room while he was sleeping in the man cave and when our daughter woke up she said oh its daddys wallet and she was picking it up to bring to him...
  • Complete silence from him

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    i have to admit I have not prayed once today. I have so many thoughts and images going thru my head and I am trying to silence them, but I feel like I keep praying for the same thing over and over. Last night he slept outside in the truck, I went out...
  • One of the longest and hardest days in a long time

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    I didnt sleep at all last night, kept running everything through my mind. I tried to just pray and find peace with the situation but I guess that is going to take time and God. My husband has not said a word about everything. He slept in the car last...
  • Doing my best to let God do the fixing

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    This week has been a struggle for me. I have deleted all my social media accounts because I dont want to be tempted to try to find a way to see what he is doing or who he is with. It also allows me more time to focus on God because the time I would spend...
  • Back on the site after what seems like forever

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    Well I am finally able to journal again, Praise God. I have had a hard time figuring out how to journal on here lol. I am back after a period of time off I was getting burned out doing the dares after 5 rounds and what seems like no changes in my husband...
  • Taking it one day at a time

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    Well it seems like he is in the avoiding me stage again. I thought we were past this but it seems like after saturday he is coming home later from work than he had been. Part of me wonders if he going to see someone after work or sitting somewhere on...
  • At a standstill again..

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    Well we are at a standstill again. Things were pretty peaceful for awhile and now things are back to my husband being silent and distant. Two weeks ago two people that used to be in his bike club were murdered outside a restaurant where all the clubs...
  • Today I need to try to keep my focus

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    After yesterday and the whole condom thing I have been having a rough time trying to keep my focus on where it needs to be. I know that I have to focus on God and that is it, but things keep coming at me. Like last night for instance I was at work and...
  • Its getting worse

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    Last night I woke up at 230 am and he wasnt home.I had a pretty rough day yesterday and when he wasnt home my mind immediately went to he is not coming back home so I called him and of course he did not answer. He sent a text about 20 minutes later saying...
  • Frustrated and stressed

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    Things in my life in general are stressing me out rite now but my husbands behavior is a big one. The past two weekends he has been disappearing from friday afternoon till monday morning and he is not working out of town. Bike parties are starting to...
  • Trying to focus on God

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    I havent been on the site for awhile. I have really been trying to keep my focus on God but it seems like evil just keeps on creeping back up. The holidays are here and I am so not in the spirit. Things have been really strained with my husband. He is...
  • The enemy has showed its face

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    Tonight I was checking my instagram well actually checking on my son who is on instagram just to make sure he didnt have anything crazy going on since he is 13 and a message popped up and it was from a woman I dont know. The message had a picture of her...
  • Feeling a little sad.....

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    Today is our daughters 5th birthday and I'm feeling a little sad because usually my husband will be around to help me get ready for party etc and this year he took off rite when I was bringing them to school. For the past three weeks since I found...
  • Focusing on being kind

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    I have found myself trying to focus on being kind instead of overthingking things. This is in all areas of my life rite now. I have so much going on from my husband to my parents to work that I have to stop at times and remind myself that I need to show...
  • Today is his birthday...

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    Well today one year ago I didnt even know where my husband was he had gone out of town and I had not heard from him all weekend and then the week after he disappeared for a week with no contact at all. Todau went a little different, this whole weekend...
  • Trying to keep my focus

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    Well today I am starting to let my mind wander a little bit and that is not good. He cam home last night around 8 pm which is not the usual time he has been coming home on Sunday nights. The last month he has been coming in at 4 am on sunday/monday morning...
  • Sad and wondering what to do next

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    So something I have done everyday since we got married 4 years ago is I always tect my husband a I hope you have a good day I love you text, everyday no matter what. Well today after I sent the text my husband replied with you can stop texting me that...
  • Trying not to let flesh win

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    I have been praying the past few days about so many areas in my life. It seems l ike when I am feeling good about stuff then things beging to crumble again. I have been having issues with my son who is 13 they are not big issues but he is very mouthy...
  • pretty much giving up on my husband

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    Oh boy since my last post things have gotten really rough. My husband barely speaks to me and has made the comments in person and in text that he only wants me to speak to him if it is about our daughter and that is it. I ended up finding another restuarant...
  • Its been a trying week

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    This past week has been a trying week for me. First my hospital job ended so I am only working at the restaurant and I am looking hard for another job because that is definitely not enough money. Then my mom got her genetic testing back and she is a carrier...
  • Today we had a real conversation...

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    Today I woke up and I read all of Tims posts on my journal :) I know that yesterday was a day to really praise God for and be thankful for. Last night he came home around 12 am and immediately went into the mancave to sleep. This morning I woke up to...
  • Here comes the nasty mood....

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    Last night my husband came home in a decent mood he was talking and interacting and thne when it was time to put our 4 year old to bed she wanted him to sleep in our bed with us and at first he was snappy with me like usual and then finally fell asleep...
  • Finding some peace

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    Its been a week since I last journaled. My daughters birthday and mine came and went without a lot of drama. On her birthday he was gone the whole day and showed up at her preschool that afternoon when I was bringing her cupcakes. He acted very standoffish...
  • Still standing for my marriage

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    Not much has changed since my last post on tuesday. My husband has not been in the house more than an hour total. He has been going to his moms a lot she called me and asked what was going on and I told her that he may need to ask him and she said to...
  • Discouraged

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    I havent been on here for about two weeks. A lot has been going on in my life. I was able to figure out my job situation temporarily at least. The doctors office that I work at is closing down in october, but I spoke with my supervisor and she is willing...
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