Well it is day 20 AGAIN...I cant believe I have made it 60 days doing dares. Today I am definitely doing the dare, I am definitely praying to GOD tonight after already praying this morning. Things between me and my husband have definitely changed from Day 1 of the whole love dare and I know that is nothing but Gods work. We still are not a great place in our marriage, he still is not communicating very much and is still pretty quiet and moody, however he is home every nite, which may be due to our transportation issues, but I try not to think that way. We have had little conversations and we do speak to one another now instead of treating each other like furniture. I still feel a little discouraged though because there is still a big distance between us and I cant seem to move that wedge. I guess this is where my faith in god id going to come in and God will work this out. My sister in law called me today and told me that he is going to join a different motorcycle club since the one he is president of is not growing like it should and that he is supposed to go to a party this coming weekend. She said that when she talked to him he didnt talk about me like he used to, he used to tell her a lot of stuff about us, but not anymore. She said he sounded tired.....i bet he is he still stays up late at night on FB....I'm seeing my counselor tomorrow and am going to ask her how to deal with the whole not sleeping in the same room issue.....I know that is small potatoes in the big picture of things and that things could be a lot worse....Iguess its time to trust God to help us.
You mentioned you seem not to be able to move that wedge. Don't worry about even trying. God is much more capable to move the wedge than you ever could.
A huge amount of good has happened in such a short amount of time. sixty days. Praise God for that and let that be your focus. And if for a time he digs in a little deeper and becomes more distant, fear not, Christ will continue to work in him while his roller coaster ride fluctuates up and down.
As you have seen and heard about some changes, this is a time of huge caution. It's a time that we can see the changes and our desires of them catching up to us can get in the way. Let his car catch up to yours. He is not ready for you to tow his car to where you want it to be.
If you haven't, read Sean's journals.
Worry about your walk, your journey right now. Let God handle the rest. I know it is tough, but look back to what God has done since you started the dares.
Start each day with prayer, praying for you, for him, and for your marriage. And also being a testimony throughout the day.
As for the sleeping. Well, if he doesn't want you in bed that is his choice, he should find another place to sleep, not you.