Well I have finished the Love Dare.  It is kind of sad.  I enjoyed reading each entry each day and then doing the challenges.  I have seen changes in my own life but not in my marriage or in Michael.  I have seen that I am working harder at being a better Christian, wife and mother.  I see that I am trying to communicate without anger.  I see that I am trying to be in the will of God.  I still have a lot of work to do. 

The one thing that I see in Michael that is different is that he is texting and talking to the other woman less during the day.  I am trying to hold my tongue about him speaking to her at night.  That is very hard. 

Yesterday at therapy, my therapist asked me how long I feel I can continue to "allow" Michael to have this relationship.  I said I don't know.  I am taking it one day at time and hoping and praying that it fizzles out.  I just keep repeating "I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord.  Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11.  I know that the Lord will bring me through this with my husband at my side in the end. 

I did not write a covenant.  I want to wait on that until the affair ends.  I think it needs to be done by both Michael and I. 

We did have devotions last night.  It went much better.  I wish the prayer time would be better.  I hope that with time it will improve. 

I plan to continue journaling here each day.  Therapist thinks journaling each day is a good idea.  I also like getting my feelings out.  If you are reading this, thanks.  If you have any comments, please leave them.  I would love your thoughts.

Blessings.

Mimi