Well I have finished the Love Dare. It is kind of sad. I enjoyed reading each entry each day and then doing the challenges. I have seen changes in my own life but not in my marriage or in Michael. I have seen that I am working harder at being a better Christian, wife and mother. I see that I am trying to communicate without anger. I see that I am trying to be in the will of God. I still have a lot of work to do.
The one thing that I see in Michael that is different is that he is texting and talking to the other woman less during the day. I am trying to hold my tongue about him speaking to her at night. That is very hard.
Yesterday at therapy, my therapist asked me how long I feel I can continue to "allow" Michael to have this relationship. I said I don't know. I am taking it one day at time and hoping and praying that it fizzles out. I just keep repeating "I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11. I know that the Lord will bring me through this with my husband at my side in the end.
I did not write a covenant. I want to wait on that until the affair ends. I think it needs to be done by both Michael and I.
We did have devotions last night. It went much better. I wish the prayer time would be better. I hope that with time it will improve.
I plan to continue journaling here each day. Therapist thinks journaling each day is a good idea. I also like getting my feelings out. If you are reading this, thanks. If you have any comments, please leave them. I would love your thoughts.