I did not have an opportunity to actually fulfill the dare today, as we didn't spend much time together. I have decided to put it in the back of my mind and allow my partner to win the next time I have an opportunity.
My prayers and thoughts over the last day or two have been mostly regarding my patience and strength while knowing my husband is in the midst of an affair. I have also been hoping he would attend counseling, and I had decided to let him win in this situation and not push it any more.
Well let me just say....my God is awesome. I know this is about my love for my husband and journey as a Christian, and not what I receive in return, but God reminded me of his power and love for me today. He knows my needs and is not blind to my pain.
First, my counselor emailed to let me know that my husband booked an appointment for next week. That was enough to jump for joy over. But it gets better....
Throughout the day, I found myself fighting anxiety and depression over the thoughts of my husband making a trip to see the other woman this weekend. I kept wondering what I might be able to do stop the encounter. I had to keep reminding myself to give up control and trust my Lord. While I was at home tonight, my phone rang. My husband was on the other end and said he was calling to let me know he had stopped talking to the other woman. Jaw drop. Unbelievable. Okay God, you have my attention.
Is this still going to be difficult? Absolutely. We are far from where we need to be as a couple, and I am far from where I need to be as an individual, but I am so excited to see what else God has in store for me. His timing is perfect, and I will continue to trust and love unconditionally. Thank you for praying with me.
Are you SURE you didnt do the dare? Its not always about the words written on the paper, but the meaning behind them. Pray on that.
When you make a choice to leave things in Chirsts hands and not your own, blessings will come. But remember it is still a journey, and you must love Christ first to be able to love those around us better.