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“Rest Easy” by Light of the Lost Boy

You don’t have to work so hard

You can rest easy

You don’t have to prove yourself

You’re already mine

You don’t have to hide your heart

I already love you

I hold it in mine

So you can rest easy

Where does my husband think I expect too much?  I think back to 105 and his 430 a.m. departure.  I still hear him call me a hypocrite.  I still hear him say I expect too much when I say, “Stand”.  This insinuates to him I think he is NOT a man.  That’s super sexy and draws a man right in, right ladies!?  Ugh!

So, He shows me (where I pummel my man).  He shows me in very directly subtle ways.  An oxymoron?  Much of His ways seem to be so. His subtlety has direct impact when we are open to Him. Many here can attest to this exquisite pain of realization.  Here was His kicker today:  I am a HUGE fan of Jason Gray> I found that he has an area of the Rabbit Room blog where he posts.  His wife, Laya, posts on occasion as well. She posted a beautiful article about a seemingly small incident that instead colored her life.  She learned from it, in her child’s heart, that she wasn’t ever truly to ask for what she really wanted.  She was to ask for what she thought she deserved.  She works on untying this untruth and lays these lessons upon readers:

1.When you are attempting to change, you should have peace with yourself and go easy. (AHHH…Our Father’s yoke is easy)

2.When others are attempting to change,  and in the process of change, we should have peace and go easy on them.  (AHHHH…Again, Our Father’s yoke is forever easy)

My Father spoke. It was a soft blow between the eyes and an ever soft blowing breeze to my heart.

My Reality Kick Question:  How long, how looooooong did my husband STAND while I tore at the walls of my mind with depression?  A long time. A long time.  And in much compassion and patience, too.  Who am I to demand he snap to it?  Who am I? BurningBeautiful Truth.  Amen.

He is so good. He Is Good.