It's been a while since I've been here. I am still leaning on God but had begun to feel as if I was letting the Love Dare take over my journey with Him and that my focus was on completing the dare to get closer to Him rather than putting my focus...

I haven't posted journals in the past several days. I've read them and I've done them but haven't really focused on them as closely as I should be. This morning during my quite time, as usual I asked Him to guide me to the passage that...

He's getting ready to go on vacation with his friend. When he told me he was going, I began to feel bitterness toward him but didn't tell him that. I prayed that Christ would release me from the bitterness and be happy for him that he has this...

When I started this journey, I said I was going to complete the forty days and if it didn't work, I could at least say I tried. I didn't realize at that point that I wasn't in a journey to fix my marriage, but to fix my relationship with Christ...

My vows to him: *I will love him for the remainder of my life *I vow to honor him and pray for him daily *I vow to have a more intimate relationship with him and show my desire for him on a daily basis

I've written the letter, now I'm just praying for His timing of delivery. "A" is working today, so I know I could leave it for him at his house but he won't receive it until tomorrow. I'm waiting on His answer on how I should...

We have been very blessed in that anything tangible that we want, we just get it, so in doing this dare, I knew it wasn't about anything materialistic that I needed to give him to fulfill his dreams. I prayed all day that I would do His will in completing...

He and I were both brought up in church; however, we were brought up in different churches with different beliefs. We are both Christian with a lot of the same beliefs, it's just that some of the things he has been taught differ slightly from what...

"Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and you shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you."-Matthew 7:7 While in high school and college, I read my Bible daily. When I had my first child, I stopped reading it as much and it got to the...

I've suggested counseling on several occassions and on all of those occassions, he's refused. He doesn't want to go and I'm not going to push him. I'm not sure who he is seeking guidance from (other than God) but I've been talking...

It would be easy for him to tell everyone of my transgressions. Especially since there are rumors all over town that he cheated on me with the girl that I found the messages from. He promises me that nothing happened between them other than the messages...

Something we do really well...parenting. We are a great team as parents to our little girls. We make decisions based on what is best for them. Since we aren't together right now, this isn't as easy as it once was. When he is off work, he tries...

When I read today's dare, I knew this one wasn't going to happen. I prayed for guidance on how I should approach it, but since he filed for divorce, I knew this was probably the furthest thing from his mind. Especially since this is the main reason...

As I read the title of today's dare, I couldn't get the theme song of "Married With Children" out of my head. If you too now have "love and marriage, love and marriage, go together like a horse and carriage..." stuck in your...

Of all days for the dare to be about unity, why today? After reading the dare for the day, I sent him the verse "what God has joined together, let man not separate"-Mark 10:9. If he read it, it was just words to him and meant nothing more than...

I was wide awake at 3:30am this morning with the burden of my "friendship" weighing heavy on my heart. I prayed and prayed for God's guidance with this as I know I need to admit to him what has happened. I was dozing off when at 3:52am I...

My heart is still very heavy. I'm not really sure what his needs are, as he's not talking to me more than what is necessary.

I don't think I put unrealistic expectations on him. I expect him to be a Christian father, husband, and friend. I don't ask him to do a lot around the house or for me. The only expectation I have for him right now andost recently is for him to...

When you judge another, you condemn yourself, since you, the judge, do the same things. -Romans 21:1 I think this has been the most difficult dare so far. There have been plenty of days that the dares seemed impossible, and I know that is only because...

Forgiveness...I've forgiven him for the hurtful things he's said and done. The hard part is forgetting. For the most part, I do well to not bring those things up but they still creep into our discussions from time to time. Is it truly forgiveness...

Day 23 was such a bad day for me. He came over to talk and finally told me that although it will probably be the biggest regret of his life, he is definitely filing for divorce. I wanted so badly to be angry at God because I've tried to do right and...

There are so many things that are hindering my relationship. One in particular is a friendship that I shouldn't have. It needs to be removed and I've attempted to walk away from it several times. When things get tough, I go back to it. I'm...

So sorry for all of the entries today. I'm playing catch up from a busy weekend. To not lash out at him is a difficult thing, because that's what I've always done in the past. He didn't bother coming to church this morning but I didn't...

I read my Bible daily...daily devotionals for women. In addition to my daily devotional, I also read a chapter from Proverbs today, just randomly chose a chapter and it was if it was written specifically for me. I pray throughout the day. I thank God...

Through this journey, I have seen that I've not been the kind of person I like to think I am. I am controlling, negative, and selfish. I want to be more Christ-like and want to let Him take control over my life, but still struggle with relinquishing...