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emotionally confused

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OK so today is V-Day and I'm on dare 39. there have been so many feelings and emotions I have experienced in the last 38 dares. I don't want to pusher any farther away but I want to pour my heart out to her. I haven't talked to her in person in like 3 weeks. I haven't seen her in almost a month. I go from having good days to days where I can not function because all I think about is her, and our life together things I have done to wrong her or hurt her and things we have done together to create wonderful memories. I had a talk with god this morning recognizing that there is no one that can fix this other than him. I asked him to continue giving me guidance and patience, I asked him to continue to work on my marriage and to continue easing my heart. I just do not know what to do today. I have so many ideas . on top of this I am going in for surgery tomorrow. she was with me during my last one and was there when I woke. I keep thinking how I want her to be there when I wake this time. I can only hope and pray.

  • What you feel is valid. However, everytime you feel so sad and empty try to resist the urge of doing things beyond teh dares by devoting your time in prayer. Seek the comfort from God for he is the real source of love. Be gounded in His love first Remain strong and faithful in this journey and you will learn to love the "Godly" way..

  • [No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead,]  (Philippians 3:13 NLT)  Justin, if you have asked God to forgive the mistakes you made in your marriage, know that He has!  Do not let the enemy keep bringing your past up to punish you with!  If he can get your focus off God and back onto your past failures, he can bog you down and keep you locked up in those failures.  Don't let him do it!  [There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus,[a] who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit.] (Romans 8:1 NKJV)  Recognize who is bringing up your past when those thoughts assault your mind and take action...God has given you the Shield of Faith to stop those darts the enemy throws at our minds, but God also gave you the Sword of the Spirit, which is His Word to strike down the enemy...learn to use these and you will be amazed at how God will transform your mind and heart!  When the enemy starts to remind you of past mistakes, immediately speak the word....NO CONDEMNATION because you are in Christ Jesus!!  Then remember God's promises and remind the enemy of those!  [For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.] (Isaiah 43:19 NLT)  God is doing a new thing in you, through your faith and trust in Him!  DO NOT let the enemy steal your joy from you!  Will keep you in prayer tomorrow!  Be sure to let us know how it goes!  

  • well I fulfilled my dare for the day I got a nice bouquet of flowers and a card. I had gotten her a necklace for Christmas but it didn't show up till 3 weeks latter so I included that. it has a pic of or wedding day on it very nice. in the card I did as I was told. now I just sit and wait with no expectation as hard as it is. I know it can go three way a bad text or a good or none at all. I ask god for the latter of the three.

  • As Princess said, about prayer, and Linda did about accepting forgiveness.

    It I am very sure is tough not seeing her for so long.  But there is goodness in it.  It keeps you more throuroughly from trying to fix it and also from doing more than a dare a day.  

    And also gives more time for God to work in both of you and also keeps the door more fully open to Christ to work in her.

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