Today is the first day and its hard. I know that I have messed up and now is the time to make it right. I have always looked out and have not seen that love is right in front of me. When it says that "Love is a descision, not a feeling" it really started to opened my eyes. As soon as I read that I made the descision, I CHOOSE TO LOVE JESSICA. She is the mother of my four kids and she has always been there for me. She has sacrifised so much for me and the kids and I always took that and her for granted. I just dont know why I have not tried to see this before. I have spent the last 8 years of our marrage finding flause with in her, to find reason not to get close to her when I should have been finding her strengths and her passions. Now I just hope that its not to late. She is on the edge to leave and I want to pull her back.
Christ is love. Without Him we offer something we think is love. But it's not. I like to refer to it as temporary infatuation. LOL...
Christ will mold you to understand what love is if you allow Him.
Realize that you are powerless to "pull" her back. None of us can control the actions, thoughts, or feelings of our spouses. There is one who can though, and you have to be willing to lay your life down for Him first.
You were chosen for this journey. It is a great honor. Do not give up or give in. It will get hard, harder than today was.