Round 4 Day 25: The dare today was more of introspect than anything. But isnt that what forgiveness is? A letting go of what we percieve to us as a crime against us? I strived to remember forgiveness for my wife, the OM, and others in my life throughout the day. I woke up in the afternoon after a long night at work. I got ready and headed out the door. I had to mail and file the answer and counter-petition before I picked up the kids. I asked if it was ok that I do so and got a yes. It felt pretty good filing though, because I know what I had put on the paper was my truth. I did a little grocery shopping then got the kids. Emily was in a rush for some reason and wanted us gone quickly. So we didnt spend a whole lot of time in conversation. I know she had to do running for the wedding she is attending tomorrow. Since I am showing the motorhome while she is gone tomorrow, I asked her to plug it in and leave the keys inside. We rented a couple movies and went back to my place. I had a conversation with my mom about filing the answer. I grilled up some pork chops, made scalloped potatoes and baked beans for dinner. The kids enjoyed it and so did I. After dinner my oldest put in a movie that my second oldest didnt want to watch. So my second oldest went outside. I went to check up on him a short time later and he was sitting in the car. He usually doesnt open up to me, but I waited with patience and love. He finally did a little bit. We talked for a while, and it was a bonding moment for the both of us. A short time later there was a knock at my door. It was Emily. The OM was in the van. She said she had texted me (I didnt hear my phone) about shoes for our daughter. She brought them over plus her rain coat. I waved to the OM, and he waved back. There was no huge conversation, but as Emily was going to the car, she turned around as I said thank you and looked me in the eyes. I prayed shortly after for both of them. My prayers have gotten better for both the OM and my wife. I ask for blessings, His will, and other specific things as I am made aware. It is a big step from forcing myself to just pray for His will. Both of their souls are not in a good place right now, I can see it. I pray for each of them to be saved. We had a good night. As the movie ended, I put the kids to bed. They were hyper and crazy and wild while I was trying to read the bible. I could feel my temper rising, and my anger building. I kept on reading. As I persisted, their commotion stopped. Sweet relief. Throughout the day, I praised and thanked Him. I feel myself getting closer. I feel so much peace, so much love and comfort. Jason
Round 4 Day 25:
The dare today was more of introspect than anything. But isnt that what forgiveness is? A letting go of what we percieve to us as a crime against us? I strived to remember forgiveness for my wife, the OM, and others in my life throughout the day.
I woke up in the afternoon after a long night at work. I got ready and headed out the door. I had to mail and file the answer and counter-petition before I picked up the kids. I asked if it was ok that I do so and got a yes. It felt pretty good filing though, because I know what I had put on the paper was my truth.
I did a little grocery shopping then got the kids. Emily was in a rush for some reason and wanted us gone quickly. So we didnt spend a whole lot of time in conversation. I know she had to do running for the wedding she is attending tomorrow. Since I am showing the motorhome while she is gone tomorrow, I asked her to plug it in and leave the keys inside.
We rented a couple movies and went back to my place. I had a conversation with my mom about filing the answer. I grilled up some pork chops, made scalloped potatoes and baked beans for dinner. The kids enjoyed it and so did I.
After dinner my oldest put in a movie that my second oldest didnt want to watch. So my second oldest went outside. I went to check up on him a short time later and he was sitting in the car. He usually doesnt open up to me, but I waited with patience and love. He finally did a little bit. We talked for a while, and it was a bonding moment for the both of us.
A short time later there was a knock at my door. It was Emily. The OM was in the van. She said she had texted me (I didnt hear my phone) about shoes for our daughter. She brought them over plus her rain coat. I waved to the OM, and he waved back. There was no huge conversation, but as Emily was going to the car, she turned around as I said thank you and looked me in the eyes.
I prayed shortly after for both of them. My prayers have gotten better for both the OM and my wife. I ask for blessings, His will, and other specific things as I am made aware. It is a big step from forcing myself to just pray for His will. Both of their souls are not in a good place right now, I can see it. I pray for each of them to be saved.
We had a good night. As the movie ended, I put the kids to bed. They were hyper and crazy and wild while I was trying to read the bible. I could feel my temper rising, and my anger building. I kept on reading. As I persisted, their commotion stopped. Sweet relief.
Throughout the day, I praised and thanked Him. I feel myself getting closer. I feel so much peace, so much love and comfort.
Jason
Wow what an amazing day. Praise God! Thank you for the testimony of your complete trust and faith in God! Gives me hope.
Agreed with HKOakland. Your trust and faith in Him has grown so much! It truly is inspiring!
Just to point out. These trying moments are what build your story for Christ. See what HK and Jenns response is shows that your testimony is important.