Day 73:

            So yesterday’s dare was opened up to me.  I waited but He didn’t make me wait too long.  During the work day, I found out that next check I will get a pay raise (yay!), and that I am going to be put on rotating shift (not my choice).  This obviously has large implications for the family.

            Emily called me a little after lunch with computer problems.  Apparently our son downloaded a virus onto the computer.  This one wont let you do anything unless you click on the button to “buy” antivirus software.  I had gotten this thing off before, so I was trying to help her on the phone.

            Work ended fine, and on my way over to the house I said my prayers asking whether I should tell Emily about the pay raise and the rotating shift.  Both answers were yes, so I felt relieved.

            I got to the house, and told Emily both things.  I apologized for not telling her about my preceding pay raise because I was scared that she would try to use it against me in court.  I then told her I’m getting an extra buck an hour or so starting my next check.  I also told her about the shift work.  We agreed to modify our visitation arrangement without lawyers present.  In fact, she was the one who suggested no lawyers, praise God!

            I went in the house and tried to work my “magic” on the computer to no avail.  I got to say hi to all the kids.  On my way out the door I asked if 8 would be an OK time to call and say goodnight to the kids at.  Emily said it would be fine.

            I took our youngest son to my place for “special time” and he didn’t want to do much so we ate soup for dinner, had birthday cake (that Emily made) for dessert and watched movies.  I talked with my mom and gave her my views on the divorce and why I will stand as long as it takes (with biblical reference being the backbone of my argument).  My mom is really happy with me about it.  Just about everyone else in my family thinks I’m crazy, LOL.

            I called at 8 after I put our son to bed.  No answer.  I left a message saying I was calling to say goodnight to the kids.  I was a little down I didn’t get to hear from the kids or her, but I used the rest of the day to get into the book.  I finished up Acts and started on Romans.

At bedtime, I thanked Him for opening the door for the dare and helping me realize that I need to have more faith in Him about the dares.  On those days I have to wait, I get a little scared that I might not complete the dare, and that’s when I start trying to take control.  I prayed for help on this in the future.

Jason