What was I thinking going into this believing it was possible to love my husband with my strength?  What was I thinking when I thought it would be easy to check off each day and fall more in love with my husband?  What was I thinking to expect my husband to be so awed that he would sweep me off my feet and we would ride into the sunset? This is a journey.  A journey of love, but more than that, a journey of redemption.  Through Christ is the only way to love.  Through Christ is the only way a marriage works.  I wonder why I am finding it hard to love my husband, well goodness, I wasn't getting love from the supplier.  It's like wondering why your car ran out of gas.....well you didn't get any from the supplier.  If you are empty on love, pull into the filling station.   I will say that I didn't expect this journey to challenge me in the area of my walk with God.  I knew it would challenge me with my walk with my husband, but I got more than I bargained for.  It is so good to be gently reminded where we are with our relationship to God.  It is so good to hear His voice whispering in our ears how much he loves us.  I am so excited to see where love takes me!