Today started off in a hurry, I need to get to directing really early. As I was on my way I started praying and spending time in the word of God. I get here and realize that i have 2hours before the rehearsal begins so I take time to listen to music off...

Well today was a difficult day. I started it with NO strength. I woke up depressed out of my mind, I was down and my body refused to do anything, it just hurt all over. My heart was sick, Yeah I needed God badly. I tried to pray and nothing came out so...

Wow today was a very long day. I’m just so tired. My older sister came back from France today so we organised a small party for her, had the whole family and some friends over. I called Ara in the morning after spending some time in prayer and thought...

Well there was more to write about. I was walking with another guy today and as we parting I bumped into Ara’ best friend. I realised that I need to tread very carefully on who I walk around with and how I am around people of the opposite sex. The...

SUNDAY Well today was an interesting day. I woke up and thought about a post that I had read saying that the way my partner is treating me is in line with how I’m treating Christ. Oh that spoke to me, thank you Jason for the lessons that I’m...

THE REALITY OF HAVING LOST ARA HIT ME HARD, THE FACT THAT I CAN DO NOTHING HURTS EVEN MORE. LIFE GOES ON AND I'M STILL STANDING. a PART OF ME WANTS TO SHAKE HIM AND MAKE HIM SEE WHAT HE IS DOING TO A GOOD RELATIONSHIP BUT I KNOW THAT HE STILL WILL...

Round 2, Day 48… Thursday Well I think I posted up yesterday’s entry to soon, Ara and I had a bit of contact. I prayed about getting contact with Ara and got a yes then I asked if we could have the conversation that I have been trying to avoid and got...

I missed out on many days because I couldn't get to a PC to document but I did do the dares. The weekend was a serious slap in the face and I almost lost faith. Things were going really well between us. I even fasted for three days just hoping and...

Yesterday my fiance was just so amazing! He gave me so much attention and love. Truly it took me a while before I remembered that he is fulfilling his dare for the day and that the way he is acting may have been inspired by the Lord. I felt very special...

The past two days (wed and thurs) have been crazy hey! Day 28 The Lord tells me not to put my hope in Ara to make my birthday special instead I should ask Him to take over my birthday and have HIM make it special for me. The sacrifice for the day was...

I did not see Ara today, I was still mad at him from the day before. I spent a good while wondering if I should call him in the morning but was told not to, I listened. Lately when I call he simply does not pick up or respond to any of my texts so I have...

Well since I did not engage with Saturday’s dare I wanted to spend some time in prayer and really give things up to God. I went to church ready to sing and do worship when I find out that Ara said that he will not be coming in. Ah I got so irritated...