Today I was woken up by the Lord at 2am, I was told to pray and as I was praying I fell asleep, I was just so tired. I could sense that the Lord wanted me to pray for Ara and myself and that He may begin to prepare the man I’m going to marry… lol I know that this is premature but I won’t lie after everything that I’ve been through I am still looking forward to getting married, now more than ever. I look forward to being the wife of a man the GOD has chosen and given to me…I have learnt what it takes to fight simply because I’m finally getting Jesus, fighting through Him and learning that infatuation is not love!!! Tough lesson indeed. Anyway for the dare today the Lord reminded me of what Ara kept saying which was that he wanted me to stand up in a physical way and make sure that even if I call him 27 times and he chooses not to pick up, that I should keep going. So today for the dare I asked if that is what I should do and I got a yes.
I spent the day chatting to him, even when he kept giving me one word answers and sometimes not even responding. I gave him an update on my day and even tried calling. Here is where I grew tired, we are chatting on bbm and he stops replying so I call him. After about 8times of doing that I got angry and stopped. In my angry I have a chat with God asking Him why I need to keep doing this? He wisely answers by saying, ‘The battle is not between flesh but spirit, you know that there are spirits that have latched onto him and that is why he is treating you the way he is. Your weapon is prayer. Go to battle with your armour on.’ Well that quickly got me praying and calm.
Jackie, Jenn, Sean, Libby, Jason….everyBODY please for him, he is under such attack and he does not even know it. I don’t have at the moment somebody to pray with over this matter… needing the two or three crowd to pray with me for Ara.
When you ask Christ about calling him do you feel the answer is yes keep calling and calling and calling till he answers or do you feel it is just call once...you did what you were asked now leave it up to God? I don't want to assume the answers you are getting from Christ, but in my opinion, I think doing the non stop calling is the flesh taking control. Remember, this journey is about you and Christ, which means get out of His way to do His work in you and Ara separately. All of the calling did not bring you peace, but only more anger and confusion, which is not of the Lord.
I challenge you to just focus on the dares and nothing more. Pray on them as you have been doing. Do them the best you can by His will not yours and then leave the rest up to Christ.
You and Ara have been on my list of prayer for some time now. i know we are all praying for each other. We are always here for enouragement, love, and accountability girl! Much love to you today!
I have always hated doing that. He makes me calls him so many times then when he finally feels like it he picks up. I hate it, I feel so rejected by him. So yes, ill take you up on that one, Ill jusut do the dares although I know him well, he loves it when I'm the one who is always sorry, he thrives on that. What kind of love is that? I'm writing this in a very bad space so I know that I have to go back and put my armour on. Thank you for praying for us. I really need it.