So today is love meets sexual needs, yeah...that did not happen. We are not married and its not something that can be done now. What I thought of doing instead was having an intimate moment with him, where he and I just enjoy each other without any interruptions just he and i together. Well as expected that did not happen, we barely spoke. I did not see him so maybe ill be able to do this dare tonight.
Sorry I journal yesterday's entry the next day because I do not have the internet connection to do it in the evening. I just pray that God would take care of this dare (day 32) and todays dare (day33) in fact I know Jesus will. I lost hope and the desire to keep going until this morning where God told me that He wants me to keep going even when im weary. Yeah, I'm really tired but God gave me strength to keep going. I'm just sorry that it has been such a rough ride, I get advice, take it then leave it. Well I'm holding on through God... His will be done
It's a growing process. You are being molded. This is a LIFETIME journey. Now that you understand this, and know He wants you to keep going, realize that He NEVER wants you to stop, ever. Thats because its about your relationship with Christ, not with Ara. When you want to quit, it may be an indication that you arent looking at it in that light, but looking at it as fixing your relationship with Ara.
He ALWAYS gives renewed STRENGTH for each day. You just have to ACCEPT it and continue to do the dares by His will. I agree with Jason, when you are wanting to quit, you are focusing more on Ara rather than your walk with Christ. Think of it that way - when you have those thoughts about giving up...you are giving up on Christ...
rough road.... If it was easy there would be no reason to do it.