Round 5 – Day 11 – Love Cherishes
“What need does your spouse
have that you could meet today? Choose a gesture that says, "I
cherish you" and do it with a smile.”
Felt a bit better this morning after
getting at least some sleep. When I woke up I found my husband on the couch. I
think I was so out of it that I was completely hogging the bed last night or
something. When I came downstairs our eyes connected. I made my coffee then
gave him a kiss, told him to have a good day, and that I loved him. Just
silence in return…I tell myself he is just taking it all in. *smiling*
I prayed for guidance throughout the
day on how to complete the dare. Yesterdays was done without me even realizing
it, so thinking maybe that is how this one was going to go to since “the way”
doesn’t always hit me right away.
When I got home I prepared dinner
and waited for my husband. 600 rolled around, which is normally when he gets
off, but guess not today. 700 rolled around still no hubby. I sent him a text
simply saying, “Hey hon…were you going to be home soon…have dinner waiting for
us.” Got a call at 730 letting me know he was on his way home—got a little bit
of overtime due to a stop he made that ended being more than what he expected.
We enjoyed dinner together when he
got home (dare complete – normally I would had eaten before he got home and just
had his waiting for him) and talked about our days just enjoying each other’s
presence. Still feeling his emotional disconnect, but this is better than
When you hav ethose emotional disconnects commit to prayer and looking for something that moment to do that will fill that void. Be it a game, or a massage, or anything. Remember you are the one that is leading their heart through Christ. So the burden will always fall on you for now.
I didn't go into great detail in my post, but even in the intimate moments he is still emotionally disconnected, so yes - the burden of that will always fall on me right now...
In reference to both of your entries, realize that with your husband, for right now, anything you say can and will be used against you. Your intention doesn't matter. Win him by your actions. Show your strength and love of the Lord in all situations. Words are not the glue right now. Actions... Loving actions at every turn...
WOW Praise GOD for your dinner together. The disconnect sucks but rely on GOD to fill that void for you. He will do it in some way. He knows everything we go through. It is not for nothing. He has great plans for you Jenn! Don't forget that.