Round 4—Day 2—Love is Kind
“In addition to saying nothing
negative to your spouse again today, do at least one unexpected gesture as an
act of kindness.”
had an early morning counseling session to start my day. Due to my vacation it
has been about a month since I saw him last, so there was a bunch to catch him
up on. I was challenged a lot. Things I needed to hear and didn’t want to hear.
I am praying for discernment. That is what counseling is all about though…shedding
light. However, I have learned throughout this journey, no matter who is giving
the advice…I pray about it first. Everyone is entitled to their opinion, but
His is the only one that matters, which may or may not align with the advice
I got to work I ended up having another heavy conversation with my friend. By
the end of it, she committed to starting the Love Dare again. Praise God!
did not have any contact with my husband while I was at work. I went to prayer
pretty consistently as the day went on. I am seeking a lot of guidance right
now especially with how I have been feeling lately.
I got home I still did not know how I was to complete the dare, but I know He
works in the moment. There wasn’t a lot of time before my husband had to go to
work. I pulled out some leftovers for me to eat. The last couple of nights I
had dinner for him, but he either isn’t hungry at that time or already ate, so
I figured he already ate since I saw cereal on the counter. I still felt
compelled to ask as I was getting ready to put the leftovers in the microwave.
Sure enough he hadn’t eaten. There was the door for the dare. I told him he could
have what I was warming up. He told me no he’d find something, but I assured
him it was okay. I just made a salad for myself.
silence was a bit awkward while eating. I would say in a sense we were trying
to pretend everything was fine, but we both know it isn’t. He wants to continue
to avoid and I did not want to press. I thought about some advice a friend gave
to say, but in the moment did not feel I was to go there. I know another big
conversation is coming soon. I have been told by a couple people now that the
enemy is working in overdrive against me especially now that my husband is
back. Can I say I am feeling it? Because I am!
O my soul, don't be discouraged. Don't be upset. Expect God to act! Psalm 42:11
Not saying you are wrong about the feeling, but that is an expectation. And honestly not trusting. Do you expect big conversations to be a part of your future?
Seek Christ to bless you with the spirit to guide and protect you from these things. And instead of worrying about the big conversations pray for big testimonies!
Your Faith in the Lord allows you to stand tall. Trust in Him as He is standing with you.
As I have mentioned, i know where you stand. Is Christ filling your voids?
Other peoples expectations starting to creep in and giving you them? Other people will look on your relationship and think, what the heck, they are supposed to be doing this if they want to save it! You know well enough that its whats between you and Christ that counts.
The way youve been feeling, yes you are in warfare. You are trying to lead your heart to where it belongs, and you are getting sidetracked and blocked. Pray, pray pray........
Like Sean said, seek, knock, and ask. I ask for Him to be louder to me, and to show Himself to me as well as just filling my voids.......