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Day 109—Love’s always Motivation

“Before you see your spouse again today, pray for them by name and for their needs. Whether it comes easy for you or not, say "I love you," then express love to them in some tangible way.  Go to God in prayer again, thanking Him for giving you the privilege of loving this one special person - unconditionally, the way He loves both of you.”

I was in immediate prayer for my husband after reading the first sentence of this especially after last night. I prayed for his comfort, healing, strength, guidance, wisdom, spiritual clarity, for him to run into His arms…the list goes on. Not going to lie. I was TIRED—emotionally and physically. But my strength was RENEWED and the calm was still at bay.

A few hours into work I prayed about texting my husband. Usually he will be the one to do so first since he has been on graves and I don’t want to wake him up, which he is aware of. Today I felt I wanted to be the first one to wish him a good morning, so about 1130 I felt the okay to do it. I had no idea where his head was at after last night, but I told him I hope he slept well. About an hour later I got a call from him. He was actually sounding rather chipper and proceeds to tell me he is in the process of moving the rest of what he can by himself into the house. I was thinking wow! He asked if I was excited yet. Poor guy. I told him I was getting there. He didn’t care. When he has something on his mind, he is going to do it. A lot like his wife.

Still thinking about the dare—we had some left over cinnamon rolls at work from this morning, so I grabbed a couple because I know my husband’s sweet tooth. Thought he might enjoy one before he goes to work and it would show in a tangible way I was thinking of him.

I get home and sure enough it is all there…well most of it. Our bed and hyda bed are still missing. I see a couple big purchases he has made since our separation. Felt a bit frustrated by that, but I did not say anything when he got back home from running a couple of errands. I let the flesh get the best of me yesterday. Not going to go there today especially when he was about to go to work. I had put the cinnamon roll on a plate for him, so when he got home it was ready to eat (yes, dinner of champions). No complaints from him though.

He got ready for work, we said our I love yous and even miss yous and he was off. He gets off at 500 am tomorrow and is planning on coming back to OUR home to sleep even though all I’ve got is an air mattress. He hasn’t had enough of me yet. LoL. He is on weekends off, so that is when we will be around each other a lot and when he plans on moving the rest of the stuff back in. Still today, not excited, but having that same calmness. I am starting to realize this is probably going to get a bit more challenging before easier since it will be more face time rather than a little more time to think when conversing via phone and text. As a wise man told me—“get on my knees and stand!” Better believe that is where I am.