109—Love’s always Motivation
you see your spouse again today, pray for them by name and for their needs.
Whether it comes easy for you or not, say "I love you," then express
love to them in some tangible way. Go to God in prayer again, thanking
Him for giving you the privilege of loving this one special person -
unconditionally, the way He loves both of you.”
I was in immediate prayer for my husband after reading the first
sentence of this especially after last night. I prayed for his comfort, healing,
strength, guidance, wisdom, spiritual clarity, for him to run into His arms…the
list goes on. Not going to lie. I was TIRED—emotionally and physically. But my
strength was RENEWED and the calm was still at bay.
A few hours into work I prayed about texting my husband. Usually
he will be the one to do so first since he has been on graves and I don’t want
to wake him up, which he is aware of. Today I felt I wanted to be the first one
to wish him a good morning, so about 1130 I felt the okay to do it. I had no
idea where his head was at after last night, but I told him I hope he slept
well. About an hour later I got a call from him. He was actually sounding rather
chipper and proceeds to tell me he is in the process of moving the rest of what
he can by himself into the house. I was thinking wow! He asked if I was excited
yet. Poor guy. I told him I was getting there. He didn’t care. When he has
something on his mind, he is going to do it. A lot like his wife.
Still thinking about the dare—we had some left over cinnamon
rolls at work from this morning, so I grabbed a couple because I know my
husband’s sweet tooth. Thought he might enjoy one before he goes to work and it
would show in a tangible way I was thinking of him.
I get home and sure enough it is all there…well most of it.
Our bed and hyda bed are still missing. I see a couple big purchases he has
made since our separation. Felt a bit frustrated by that, but I did not say
anything when he got back home from running a couple of errands. I let the
flesh get the best of me yesterday. Not going to go there today especially when
he was about to go to work. I had put the cinnamon roll on a plate for him, so
when he got home it was ready to eat (yes, dinner of champions). No complaints
from him though.
He got ready for work, we said our I love yous and even miss
yous and he was off. He gets off at 500 am tomorrow and is planning on coming
back to OUR home to sleep even though all I’ve got is an air mattress. He hasn’t
had enough of me yet. LoL. He is on weekends off, so that is when we will be
around each other a lot and when he plans on moving the rest of the stuff back
in. Still today, not excited, but having that same calmness. I am starting to
realize this is probably going to get a bit more challenging before easier
since it will be more face time rather than a little more time to think when
conversing via phone and text. As a wise man told me—“get on my knees and stand!”
Better believe that is where I am.
I know that wise man. He needs to copyright that!!!! Praise God, Gem!!!!!!!!!
More face time does present more challenges. You REALLY notice your flesh when the things that have hurt you or bother you are there, in your face, in the flesh. HOWEVER, as you know, If He brings you to it, He will bring you through it. Love you, Gem.
Remember.... Now you are the one leading the charge with Christ. Your testimony is what has brought him to this point.... COntinue to trust Christ and lead that home to Him....
Truly, praise God!
Your husband (I am assuming he is much like me) is taking comfort and safety in the I love yous and I miss yous. He is relying on you to be his rock because he hasnt yet come to Christ. It may be a long journey for him, but continue praying.
This is great! Praise God indeed! I do think this face time will be great time for him to see you are not going to change (testimony) I think it will add value to his growth closer to God.