Day 92—Love always Lets the Other Win
love by willingly choosing to give in to an area of disagreement between you
and your spouse. Tell them you are putting their preference first.”
It was another gorgeous day outside, so started
it off with an early morning run then church with my parents. After church my
Dad and I visited my Grandma’s grave site in honor of Mother’s Day. On the way
home I noticed a missed call from my husband. I gave him a call back to see
what his plans were for the day. He said he had none, so I asked if he wanted
to come over or for me to come over there remembering that today it is his preference. He said he would prefer
his place and we could take our dog to the park, so I agreed. I got to his
place and he hadn’t showered yet, so he did that while I sat outside enjoying
God’s beauty then he cleaned his truck and we headed to the park for a little
bit. I had thought we were just going to throw the ball around in the grass
like we normally do, but since it was so warm out he wanted to take Chelsea to
a spot on a local trail that had water. I was not prepared for this—was still
in a skirt, blouse, and dress shoes (not long-walk friendly), but I went with
it rather than act like I used to (complain because he didn’t tell me exactly
what he had planned and just stay in the truck). It turned out to be fun
because of how much our dog LOVES water.
When we got back to his place we got cozy and
watched a movie (not a whole lot to do there as you can probably tell by now).
He could tell I was a bit off because of how quiet I was being since I had arrived.
He thought I was angry, but I assured him I wasn’t. I said, “You realize we
aren’t going to see each other for two weeks?” His response was, “Two weeks? I
didn’t realize you were going to be gone that long. That isn’t fair.” I said, “You
could still come.” He said he can’t take another two weeks off after just being
off for essentially the last five weeks. I told him, it would be just one if he
left when my brother and brother's girlfriend did. All he had to do was ask. He simply said he can’t. I
left it at that. I tried not to let him see the tears in my eyes before I had to go. I had so much
excitement for this trip when we started planning it last year since we have
not had a family vacation since my brother had went to college six years ago.
Now everyone in my family is going to be there, but my husband. Yes, it is
Hawaii…how can you not be excited for that? I will get there…perhaps once I am
on the plane. Sadly, I am still not giving up hope though. That is just who I
am…I hope till it isn’t possible (i.e. I am standing in Hawaii).
I prayed about the accomplishment of the dare…was
it Hawaii or simply going to his place? I asked for a strong yes or no on this
one and the yes was going to his place. I got no answer for Hawaii. That means,
“Be still, and know that I am God!”
Let us chop this sentence up:"Sadly, I am still not giving up hope though." Sadly??? Is this our Gem speaking??? I AM. (There He is...in the fabric ;). Still (He is present). Not Giving Up (Amen...There's Gem and Him); Hope...Hope is seen as fluffy...but it is not to me. It is what keeps you driving forward when it is a slow, sometimes painful, drive. Though...I don' t know what that is LOL
Cheeseburger indigestion....yeah, baby, yeah.
Love ya Libby...you are my sparkle in this journey, so with that said - that is YOUR nickname. ;)
Thank you for breaking that down for me - showing me that it is not sad to still hold on to that hope despite what anyone else may think.
Read what Sean wrote to me in my entry Analogy....who do you need affirmation from???? WHO has taken over our Gem????????? xo
This may be the Lords way of getting you to depend more on Him to handle things while you are away.
Remember.. you are apart of Gods plan.
Libby did fantastic in bringing you back where you need to be by using your own words!
The fact that hubby said its not fair that you would be apart for two weeks shows he misses and is going to miss you.
You never know what is going to happen in regards to hubby going, but you need to have no expectations of him being there.
Remain excited. Even if he doesnt go with you, you will see Christ every day in Hawaii no less!