27 Love encourages
completed half of yesterdays dare. I had not asked my wife to
forgive me. As I was getting ready for bed I received a text from
her that read “relationships are not a test, so why would you
cheat?” I felt the time was right to ask her. I texted asking if
we could talk. She said she had to much to drink and tomorrow would
be better. She called this morning and we talked. Again she caught
me off guard. So I started to explain and started getting tongue
tied. Then just spit it out. I am asking for forgiveness. She
replied she is working on it. So wonderful. No spite or venom. Then
we proceeded to have a really talk. My day started off right! I
prayed, watched some teachings on TV that really hit home. He is
working hard on me. I am going to finish reading todays dare and
finish this entry.
dare is a lot of self introspection for me. The biggest expectation
that I feel I placed on my wife was to tolerate me while I was
intolerant of everyone else. I have had tons of time to think about
this. I choose to release this expectation. To accept those I love
as they are and rejoice in them. How can I do any different? Jesus
accepts me for how I am. Speck and the log! This dare I really like
it! Talked to the wife again and completed this dare. She was very
open to it. She said that was huge and true. I said sorry and that
I release that expectation and choose to love her unconditionally
even if I didn’t get anything in return. Guess I completed two
dares. Not sure if I had that opportunity to actually tell my wife
this before. She then expressed concern about expecting love in
return and not knowing what the future holds. I laughed as what was
going through my head was I have no expectations of the future. The
Lord will provide me with what I need and has a plan for me.Then she
started talking about going to the ball with me next Saturday. She
talked about not having any expectations for sex which I agreed and
let her know that I do not wish to go down that road at this time. I
told her that I will get her a room at the hotel the ball is at. She
has a spa coupon there from long ago she has not used and I want her
to use it finally. One last thing I heard this morning. If you
married your spouse so they can make you happy, how happy are you?
If you married your spouse to make them happy, how happy are you?
Stick to the dares no matter how good or bad things are. We all search for comfort and love but without Christ we never find it.
You are getting a chance to grow in Christ and to experience love as it was intended. Just be careful the flesh does not take back over....