Day 24 Love vs. lust
I have removed the lust from my life. I used to look at porn. It
has been some time since I have last done that. As of today I have
removed the last lustful things from my life. I can say this my
desire for my wife has grown tremendously since I have removed porn.
I only wish I could share it with her. I lusted after other women,
gaming and time not with my family. Through Christ I will not lust
after what is wrong. This one I have thought on all day. I like to
jeep and that ran through my head that jeeping was a lustful thing.
One can really rack his brain over this. It really made me realize
where I placed my priorities.
Jeeping doesn't comproise your faith does it? Does it give you joy? Does it clear your mind and open your mind? That is not lustful...it is healthy.. IF you find yourself chained to it...and it brings you down...that is different.
Thank you so much for that insight.
Just received a phone call from my wife. I had spoken to her earlier in the day but she caught me off guard. I was not prepared to talk to her. I was tongue tied and stumped. I loved it. Fast forward to about 10 minutes ago. She called immediately asking about the other woman. She had questions and I answered them honestly. The OW was a random woman I had met while traveling in Nashville. Not much I can remember. I didn't even know her name. I remained calm and answered her questions until we got cut off. I tried to call back but the connection was weak. She sounded pissed off. I can not blame her. I feel this was God's work. I feel so ready for what is to come. I am off my roller coaster because I am to stand strong for her. WOW
You knocked...you seeked...and now you are experiencing spiritual clarity! We all have many wake up call moments through this journey...I can see you have had one - STANDING for your marriage wholeheartedly because you looked for Him wholeheartedly and found Him (Jeremiah 29:13). Praise God!
Not everything you enjoy is lust. Remember lust is the desire for things forbidden. But it is also the things that take you away from your walk with Christ.
So unless jeeping is taking you from Church and your family constantly, I would not be to concerned with it.