I have been inactive lately due to adjusting to being a single parent and trying to maintain my changes. Yesterday was challenging as I came home around noon from doctors appointments to the paramedics and sheriffs at my house. I want to believe the best and think my daughter hurt herself cooking. Nope! She decided that she would get stupid drunk and then started throwing up and called 911. Couple hours in the ER and then an evening at home. I have prayed on why I have been doing the love dare. I want to be a good husband. More importantly I want to walk a life with Christ. I have prayed if I should continue the love dare with my wife. I questioned it because of things my kids have done to her and her daughter. What I received in return was to finish the dares and stop. I am to complete this so that my wife and I have a relationship that is healthy for the kids. We are not meant to be together. I will continue to pray on this. I feel that this is right. My son no longer wants to live with me and is moving back to his mothers. My daughter needs me. I am to focus on being a father. I pray on this a lot. So as I will complete this dare. I will start round 2 and grow stronger with the Lord.
Who is the Love Dare for????? This is for you and your relationship with Christ, Jason. Patience. Peace. Understanding. I know it hurts. I know it sucks. This is the beauty of this whole thing. Despite it all, He has you Rise Above. When your kids are out of control and your wife seems completely disconnected and you feel like you are going to lose control, STOP. Go into a room. Shut the door. Give it all to Him. Tell HIm what you feel. Tell Him what you want to feel. He already knows. He wants you to recognize that He can do all things. You are a good dad and husband or you would not be here. Blessings. Pray.
He will never give you more than you can handle. Trust me, it WILL get better. There are many times I have asked the Lord on whether I should keep gonig or not. Sometimes I get mixed messages back......the flesh gets in the way and screams NO.
We all get pulled back into the trap of thinking that this will save our marriage. There is no guarantees, so there should be no expectations.
If you really want to walk a life with Christ, you will keep going.
Here is the problem... You are still not focused on this journey with Christ. Everything in your life is a part of this journey now. And you cant quit... Remember this one thing. You asked Christ to come into your life.
Here is the good news with that. He will never leave or forsake you. And now here is the bad news. He will never leave or forsake you. He will continue to work on you until He is done. And trust me. He has way more patience than we do!
Seek Christ with every burden in your days.....
I did not express myself correctly yesterday. I will continue the love dare. Christ has shown me that I need to continue this journey. The expectation of this healing my marriage is released. Yes there is a struggle. I beg the Lord to pour it on as each time my faith gets tested and I waiver, there has been a remarkable message from him restoring everything stronger then before. I am learning to love. Thank you everyone. I am here for the long walk with Christ!