Day 18 Love seeks to understand:
I am unable to complete this quest as the book says to. Although I would really like to be able to. I sent a text earlier to my wife and I did not know the meaning of doing so until now. The text said the following:
I dont know if you will accept this but when we talk I feel different. I like talking to you. Something I should have done a lot more of before! Maybe its being open, maybe its realizing that there is a lot more to me then I cared to acknowledge. I know there is a lot more to you. I am trying to say thank you and I appreciate who you are.
After reading this chapter and rereading my text I believe it is the culmination of the conversations y wife and I have had recently. I am getting to know her on a different level. There are questions that I want to ask and need to pray on them. Funny as I am typing this she texting me saying “your welcome”.
I agree - your text's underlying meaning expresses that you do seek to understand her more. Her response was simple, but I bet it made her feel extra special especially if it is not something you typically would say/acknowledge.
She didn't shoot you down, and I'm sure that it meant a lot more to her than you think. I think she appreciates the fact that you acknowledge her. Sometimes something as big as that is too big, and we don't know what to say. Your welcome, is probably all she could allow herself to say, but if it was me, a million other things would be going through my head, that I wanted to say back. But she is not where you are yet in a journey with God. She is still ruled by her own hurt and it will take time for her to see your true meaning and the love in which you do it.
Jason,
What in this can you see you need for a stronger relationship with Christ? With her reply you are growing. But Christ is looking for that same thing from you.... And I know it has been happening. I see your growth daily. Now it is time to offer that to her, and to others. Your tesitmony if one that will shine through.
Answering your questions Jason, What can I see that I need for a stronger relationship with Christ?
I really don't like questions like this as it forces me to put pressure on myself. One thing is completely giving it to the Lord. Second is more margin for prayer. The last thing that I can think of is giving it all to the Lord. Thank you Jason.
Haha! Gotta love Sean for that. He is great at accountability and pointing out the things we'd rather not "see." I know what you mean about putting the pressure on yourself. I have been struggling with that myself...more so "I am not doing enough" to show how THANKFUL I am for EVERYTHING He is doing, but I have to realize I will never be doing enough. I am human. God already made His choice. He loves me..and you... We just have to continue to follow Him and trust in Him.
That is so true. I think it is a truth that we all fight. We try to be more than we can to please, obtain or acquire what we want. That only happens when you realize that you can not to that and let it go. Rather truly lay it at Christ's feet. I am learning this as I have both my kids here now and the pressure is high. Seems like they know how to push the buttons. The more I try to be patient and think through the problem the more the create problems. Lots of praying. LOTS.
I love the word levels! It means growth. :)