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  • October 17, 2018

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    Yesterday I had to do another 180 in the opposite direction. I finally have to listen to Tim. After all these months. When Tracey put up the thing yesterday comparing my covenant wife to the Prodigal Son I realized that it's my job to continue what...
  • October 16, 2018

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    Yesterday Becca (15) and Trinity (14) had dentist appointments. Since Trinity no longer lives with me I let Amber know and she made arrangements for her mom to take her. Becca texted me and said grandma would take her too so I didn't have to miss...
  • October 15, 2018

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    This weekend was, again, not a good weekend. Trinity (14) went with her mom on the Kings Island trip. I told her as long as the boyfriend went she was not allowed to go but she went anyway. Some people tell me I have no right to do that but my preacher...
  • October 12, 2018

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    I'm almost done with everything. What's the purpose of this battle? I'm fighting for what is right and what God would want but there's a person fighting for the exact opposite. My children don't believe in God. My wife left me and...
  • October 11, 2018

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    This morning there's no school in my county so I left Allison (6) home with Becca (15.) I no more than walked in the door at work and I get this from Amber (She just seems so bitter still): Amber: Are you dropping Allison off? Me: No Amber: Who's...
  • October 10, 2018

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    The last few days have not been good. The adopted kids asked to go see their bio parents over the weekend. I let them because it's impossible to keep them away in this day and age with social media and I want to help them know their parents. I think...
  • October 5, 2018

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    Where to start? Things are getting better but also more complicated. When I made up my mind to text Amber it opened up a door of some sort and I'm just not comfortable with it at all. She hurt me and nearly destroyed me but I feel like she thinks...
  • October 4, 2018

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    I had all the kids in church last night except Nick (15.) I messaged him but he never answered me. I did see his social media post (from Trinity(14)) that showed him asking for Juul pods. He said he would give someone $10 for one in school. His poor decisions...
  • October 3, 2018

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    Yesterday the girls went with Amber to get their nails done. They said they were going out to eat so I didn't make them any dinner but they got home really early. For some reason Amber didn't take them to eat. Then Trinity (14) told me the wildest...
  • October 2, 2018

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    I don't think I can get through this. I hope I can but it's so hard. I want my family to be whole again. I know it could be better than it ever was. I know how to be a Godly husband. I know how to be a Godly parent. I just don't have her on...
  • October 1, 2018

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    I made it through the weekend. Nick (15) had court Friday and it was postponed until October 10th. He asked if he could go with us on our road trip this weekend and I said he could. About ten minutes after we left Amber texted and emailed me and said...
  • September 28, 2018

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    Well things just got infinitely harder. I dropped my personal phone in water three days ago and had to wait for a new one. When I got it up and running last night I had multiple voicemails from the public defenders office concerning Nick (15.) I called...
  • September 27, 2018

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    So many things happened yesterday. I got to a very low point, so low that I thought when I go to sleep tonight I really don't care if I wake up or not, but managed to recover by the end of the evening. I made dinner as soon as I got home from work...
  • Second draft of letter to Amber

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    I took out all the blame and anything negative about her. I try to highlight my faults and weaknesses. I put more scripture in and tried more to give God glory for my life in hopes that she can see this, the new me, the now permanent me. Amber, I pray...
  • September 26, 2018

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    After work I picked up the girls, dropped them off at the house with the other kids and headed to Divorce Care. It was a good evening getting stuff out of my head with people who have experienced similar things. There's one guy in the group who is...
  • Rough draft of letter to Amber

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    Amber, I pray that this letter helps you, and me. It is intended to be between us. No attorneys, no judges, no parents, no children. Just you and me. At this point I don’t care what anyone thinks. I follow only God. My hope is for us both to come...
  • September 25, 2018

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    I barely slept a wink last night. I had trouble getting to sleep and I woke up many times. I actually woke up from a dream that she invited me to move back into our house but I had to stay in another room so we could see where to go from there. I prayed...
  • September 24, 2018

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    I'm still thinking about the possibility of writing a letter to her to explain what I've been feeling over the last year. The kids mentioned a couple more things to me this weekend about her telling them I am this bad person that has no goal in...
  • September 23, 2018

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    Well, made it through Homecoming. Spent about $700 for the three kids to go. They were upset because mom didn't spend a dime. To be fair I didn't ask her for any money but I'm sure she would have helped pay for it if I had asked. One of our...
  • September 22, 2018

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    I'm sitting with my girls, Becca (15) and Trinity (14,) while they get their hair done for Homecoming tonight. Then we are off to the mall to get their makeup done. This means no college football today, and I love college football. Married life was...
  • September 21, 2018

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    I'm so tired of saying this never ends. I did get very depressed last night for the first time in a long time. I even stared at a bottle of pills for a few minutes. Just getting so sick of the never-ending chaos. Caleb (17) even apologized to me and...
  • September 20, 2018

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    Oh my Lord. It's been almost three months since she divorced me against my will. I wore my wedding band for six weeks after that and finally took it off. With everything that has happened I really should hate this woman with as much (or more) passion...
  • September 19, 2018

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    She texted me a bunch of times last night while I was asleep. I woke up because my phone was buzzing and she was going on about telling the kids about our finances and how it is wrong and how she is going to make a spreadsheet to show them what her bills...
  • September 18, 2018

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    It was a quiet day yesterday. I spent most of the evening catching up on washing clothes. I worked a little on prepping the girl's room for their waterbed. Made dinner then sat down with Caleb (17) to watch Monday Night Football. I slept fairly well...
  • September 17, 2018

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    I made it through the weekend. She texted me a couple times, not about the kids, so I didn't respond. I would respond yes or no but every time I do it's like it opens up a window that tells her we are best friends and we can talk about anything...
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