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Today I struggled

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I woke up with new joy. Not because my situation has changed but because my God is good. On the way to work I prayed fervently.  I asked God to please work in my husband and to prevent him from doing what he was going to do today. (File for divorce.) Turns out my husband had to work today after all. So, no papers as of yet. Now he will be off Friday instead. I went ahead and called my attorney before I knew this. She is ready to answer his papers if they come but praying they won't. There is no "cool down" period but I can make the best of the time I do have. And regardless, I'm thankful to get to show love to my spouse while I can. 

I had a very weak moment today. I cried out to God half of the day about how tired I am. I told him I can't keep doing this. I don't want to keep fighting. I feel like I'm punishing myself. Then he shook me out of my pity party. He asked me if I was ready for the divorce and of course my answer was no. It was then that he reminded me that people often say we want things when deep down we don't. We let emotions overwhelm us. I'm praying that's the situation with my husband. 

I pushed through and completed today's challenge. I praised him for a recent recognition at work. I know that me doing the challenges everyday is throwing him off a bit and he doesn't understand why I am doing the things I'm doing. 

God has also reminded me that in lifting the veil from my eyes he is also able to lift the veil from others. I'm thankful to say that I'm choosing to end my night on that positive note and excited to see what tomorrow's challenge will be. Still nothing from my husband as far as a response to anything I'm doing. Nothing but confusion anyways. I'm actually ok and content with that today. 

  • God IS good, no matter what our situations.  I think the dares confuse my DH as well.  And I have learned to be content with no response and instead just be grateful for the opportunity to complete the dares and share love with my spouse.

  • God IS good, no matter what our situations.  I think the dares confuse my DH as well.  And I have learned to be content with no response and instead just be grateful for the opportunity to complete the dares and share love with my spouse.

  • That new joy you felt.  It is beyond all understanding.  The world will not understand how you can be joyful in the middle of a trial like this.  Next time you are hurting, remember how God brought you to joy.

    He is confused.  He sees you showing kindness and being happy, when he thinks he is the one that should be happy because he thinks he is controlling the shots.  But he is not happy and frustrated you are showing kindness, which usually comes from someone who is happy.  So, keep shining  the light of Christ.

    He's also confused because he wants to be happy and thinks he is pursuing something he wants, but what he's getting in return from his actions is Christ's conviction.  So, pray he feels this conviction, understands what it is, and knows how to react to this conviction.

    God is not only working in you, but him as well.  So, also pray that God's will is done in his life.  

  • Very power words from you guys! Keep fighting!

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