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  • Love must still cherish

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    A month since I have posted anything – I have tried hard to separate myself from all things marriage-and-divorce related, and have spent a lot of time with friends, getting outdoors and walking, and trying to rediscover me. Since my last journal...
  • Back after some R & R

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    I'm back from a week and a half of travels. Last weekend, I traveled to South Mississippi to see my niece graduate from high school. From there, I traveled to Florida and spent a week with a dear friend of mine at the beach. The ocean always reminds...
  • Ripped open

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    It’s been a while since I posted, and I haven’t logged onto the site in a couple of days. I have been busy, which is good because it keeps my mind off of being lonely. But tonight, my heart was ripped wide open, and I didn’t handle it...
  • Another text

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    Another text message from DH this morning, but I’m not sure that he meant to send it to me. He sent me a text that said “in office action”. He often since cryptic texts, and I knew that he was referring to some type of action going on...
  • Mother's Day

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    DH sent me a text before church this morning that said "happy Mother's Day". I sent him a text back that simply said "thank you". He also liked a post about my own mom that I posted on Facebook today. I am thankful that we separated...
  • Confusing

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    I spent the day with my sister and family at my nephew's college graduation. On the 6 hour ride down here yesterday, DH sent me a text that he had taken our divorce paperwork to his employer and that if I needed anything else to let him know. I sent...
  • Love is not rude

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    I had to reach out to DH this afternoon. I have been concerned because I have not received any paperwork to maintain my health insurance through cobra. I called his employer beginning on Monday, and left a message, but did not leave my name. I only said...
  • "Who are you?"

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    I just got back this evening from five days at the beach with my daughter. A much needed vacation. It was bittersweet. As much as I enjoyed spending the time with my daughter, I really missed DH. I haven't heard anything from DH since the day our...
  • Time to let go?

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    Exactly one week ago at this very moment, I was in the arms of my husband. Tonight, I sit alone and have no husband. As I contemplate the events of the past week, months, and years, going back 19 years, I am inclined to believe that it may be time to...
  • Lessons learned and blessings received

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    Lessons that the dares and this trial taught me…. 1. Love is an act of obedience. 2. Love expects nothing in return. 3. When the choice to love is consistently made, the feeling of love develops and deepens. This was accomplished by consistently...
  • It's over

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    It's been a long day. I woke up married, and I am going to bed divorced. I prayed right up through time for the court hearing that DH would back out. He sent me a text at 9:23 this morning that read "I am home now. I am very sorry, I feel ashamed...
  • A very bad day

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    I think today has been the worst day of my entire life. I took the afternoon off, and spent the time praying, reading the Bible, and talking to my counselor. I feel so stupid. I really expected DH to call me when he got home from work and tell me that...
  • Thankful

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    God has been gracious. God has heard my cries. God is still pursuing my husband. This evening around 5:30, the silence was broken. DH called me. I happened to be crying when he called, and he could tell. He chit-chatted about his weekend, asked about...
  • Still expectantly waiting

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    Another silent day. I taught a sales workshop this morning, but the rest of the day has been nothing but tears. I was driving home this afternoon, crying, and decided that I would turn on the radio in order to hear a word from God. The song "Reckless...
  • Waiting for an answer

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    I wrote DH a letter last night and stuck it in his mailbox this afternoon. I basically told him that I couldn’t help but think about our conversation last night. I told him that I had really enjoyed reconnecting with him the past couple of weeks...
  • Still standing

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    I have been concerned all week about the lack of communication from DH, and discussed it with my counselor this evening. Things seemed so great this time last week, and then….crickets. My counselor as well as my best friend felt like I needed to...
  • Resist the devil and he will flee

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    Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Oh boy, do I need God's strength to resist tonight. Satan has been messing with my mind all day. It started last night with thinking that DH will want to live married but separate lives, and has progressed...
  • Fear not

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    It was wonderful to see DH tonight. I know that he was tired after working all day. When he got home from work, he took a short nap and ate a quick bite before coming over here. I volunteered to cook his dinner, but I think he wanted the time to rest...
  • Pressing in on Jesus

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    Well, I'm not quite sure what to think about today. After receiving a good night text from DH last night, I sent him a good morning text this morning when I got up. We texted back-and-forth a little bit today. One surprising thing that happened today...
  • Trying to live the dares

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    When DH got off work this afternoon, he called me to touch base. He was planning on coming to my house this evening, and we agreed that he would call me after he got home to make final plans. He called me a few minutes later to say that his daughter called...
  • Just thankful

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    Well, after initiating contact with me last night, DH initiated contact with me again this morning. Right as his shift was starting at work, he sent me a text about the union election results. I sent him a text later in the morning that said "So...
  • Love is not jealous

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    On July 27, on Day 8 of my first round of dares, I wrote this in the blank spaces provided for Day 8 in the Love Dare book: “God, open my eyes to something that I can celebrate with him. Open my eyes to something that I can be happy with and for...
  • Waiting

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    This morning, I sent DH a text that simply said "missing you like crazy". He responded back with "sayin I'm crazy?" I responded with "noooooo". I didn't hear anything else from him, but tonight he liked something...
  • Blessed with Godly counsel

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    Love is accountable – and I have been so blessed throughout this journey to have the support of some very special Christian friends, and a very wonderful Christian counselor. It had been 4 weeks today since I last met with my counselor – she...
  • A lovely evening

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    DH and I had a lovely evening. I sent him a text around 11:30 this morning that just said “hi”. He never did respond. Of course, all kinds of things started going through my head. I got out my Bible, and started reading in Psalms. I prayed...
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