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  • It’s not over ???

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    Today has been an emotionally draining day. I’ve tried to make sense of the interaction that I had with DH yesterday, but my mind can’t quite comprehend it. I had a counseling appointment today, spoke with one of my best friends late this...
  • Confused

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    Sorry that this is such a long post, but I didn’t want to forget any of it as I will probably share it with my counselor this coming week.... On my way to church this morning, I received a text from DH stating that I had some mail at his house....
  • I forgot a few things....

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    I really tried to get everything out of DH’s house on Monday - but I accidentally left a couple of things behind. I left my dad’s shower chair that I borrowed when I had neck surgery last year, I left the ice cream freezer DH gave me on my...
  • He beat me to it!!

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    He beat me to it! At 10 o’clock this morning, I received a text message from DH that said “HVD”, which of course stood for Happy Valentines Day. I didn’t see the text for about 2 1/2 hours because I was busy working. When I saw...
  • God is at work

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    It was weird to spend a day without communication with DH. I guess it’s a stupid thing to wonder, but I wonder if he misses me as much as I miss him, if he misses me at all. I had a long talk with God this morning shortly after I woke up. I told...
  • Alone but not really

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    My move is over. The house is in shambles! Bags and boxes and totes everywhere. It will take some time to get everything sorted out and put away. Especially since I go back to work full time tomorrow! However, the dog and I are settled in for the night...
  • God, give me strength

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    I just made lunch for DH the last time, and poured his coffee for the last time. As he left for work, I kissed him on the cheek and gave him a hug. He hugged me back. There were no words said. I let go, and he walked out the door and said bye. I watched...
  • Our last night under one roof

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    I am having the hardest time getting ready and going to bed tonight. I don't want tomorrow to come. I don't want to close my eyes on today, my home, DH. This is the last night that I will ever sit on the couch and look across the den at DH sitting...
  • I don't want to move.

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    It is 9:30 at night, and I haven't slowed down since 6:30 this morning. I took 4 carloads of stuff to my house. I spent most of the day emptying my closet, dresser, and chest. I kept out enough clothes for the next couple of days and put them in a...
  • So little time....

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    So much to do and so little time. I have packed for days. Well, when I haven't been working. I was out of town on business yesterday and today. I postponed my move until Monday. It's supposed to rain tomorrow and Sunday nonstop, and I just didn't...
  • A difficult evening

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    I have spent the bulk of the last two days preparing my house to move back into. Cleaning, lining cabinets, etc. I have barely made a dent in packing, and I need to have it all done by Wednesday night since I will be out of town on Thursday and Friday...
  • The beginning of the “lasts”

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    I realized this morning that the “lasts” have begun. Last night was the last Thursday night I will live in our home with DH. I will be on a business trip next Thursday night. I will get back on Friday evening and move that Saturday. Tomorrow...
  • Tears abound

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    Today was one of the most difficult I have ever experienced. My 40-year old step daughter stopped by the house. She said that the purpose of her visit was to share her feelings with me. She told me that the situation is awkward and that she is at a loss...
  • The truth shall set you free

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    God is faithful to provide wisdom when we seek it from Him. As I was headed to work this morning, the thought popped into my head "I shouldn't be the one lying. If anyone is going to lie, it will have to be him". Then I read Tim's comment...
  • Bittersweet

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    Today was bittersweet for me. Bitter because I began cleaning my house in order to have it ready to move back into. Sweet because I had the opportunity to show DH that I still love him by going out and buying the weekly groceries. After I got home from...
  • Relieved

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    Tonight, I asked DH why he had requested the name change be put in the divorce papers. He started kinda laughing and shaking his head. He said the attorney asked him what my name was before we got married, and that he told the lawyer My maiden name. He...
  • Having a hard time

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    I sat down and read my divorce papers this morning after DH left for work. Since we had a prenup, I wasn’t surprised by anything except for one thing. The papers request that my name be changed back to my maiden name. I’m having a hard time...
  • Served

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    Well, it happened. I was served papers this evening. One of my closest friends texted me this morning and asked if I wanted to meet her for dinner. I told her I didn’t get served last night and that I might need to stay around the house. I texted...
  • One more day

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    I was not served divorce papers today by a process server like DH thought I was going to be. God in His infinite and sovereign wisdom has protected my marriage for one more day.
  • Hope.....

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    Tonight at Bible Study, Romans 8:18 was our memory verse: “Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will reveal to us later.” I am so thankful that my hope is in Jesus.
  • The other woman....

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    This is very long!........... I’m still around after a three week break from journaling. I quite honestly have been at a loss for words, struggling with my thoughts and emotions. I came to the realization that there had been another woman in my...
  • R4D33 Things don’t always turn out as planned

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    This is the dare where I am supposed to tell DH that I am going to include him/his input in my plans. I knew when I read the dare that this included telling him about the flooring situation in my old house, how it is still backordered. So tonight, I told...
  • R4D32 Love is a choice.

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    Today’s dare was exceedingly difficult for me. Earlier this evening, I walked down the hall to hear my DH and his daughter on the phone (speakerphone) discussing what type of dog he should get. Oh how painful that was to hear. I felt like it was...
  • R4D31 I am not alone

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    2017 was the worst and the best year of my life. Worst because the man I love declared his desire for a divorce. Best because of the realization of the depth of my Christian friendships and the support I have, and the growth I have experienced through...
  • R4D30 The real source of division

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    Division. God revealed it clearly to me this morning as I was in my devotional time. One of the reference passages in my devotional was 1 John 4:8 - " The one who does not love does not know God, because God is love." The Message says it this...
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