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R4D31 I am not alone

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2017 was the worst and the best year of my life.  Worst because the man I love declared his desire for a divorce.  Best because of the realization of the depth of my Christian friendships and the support I have, and the growth I have experienced through this journey.  I sat here in my bedroom alone as the new year rang in - first time in many years that I didn't ring the new year in with DH.  He went to bed about 15 minutes until midnight, making certain we wouldn't see the clock roll over together!  I had to fight back some tears. As the clock struck midnight, I sent "Happy New Year!" to his cell phone.  He will see it tomorrow morning.  He may think I am starting this new year off alone, but I am not.  My Father and His Son adore me and have promised to never leave me or forsake me.  Their Spirit lives in me, my constant companion.  

I didn't get the dare done today.  Didn't even look at it until bedtime.  I will just have to skip it.  We had a pipe leak in the bathroom today, DH's daughter went to the ER with a kidney stone today and we kept the grandkids, I met my daughter and her boyfriend for lunch after church (driving 1 1/2 hours each way) and then DH's son in law cooked dinner for all of us.  It made me sad to think that it might be the last time I am ever in their home.  I love DH and his family.  
  • Thank God he is still under the same roof.  Even if he chooses to show his coldness by going to bed 15 minutes before midnight.  Can you imagine all the things that go on in his mind and all our spouses minds during this trial. I mean, they have to think of things like this, stay up and make sure you go to bed  specifically 15 minutes before the ball drops.  

    Our spouses must be weary.  From fighting conviction, to using energy to keep that wall up, to finding ways to show coldness.  It must be brutal fighting marriage that is etched into their DNA.

  • Even if a d happens, his family probably will want to keep in touch with you.  It matters not if this upsets him.  But do not keep in tough just to irritate him or as a means to keep connected to him.  I do know that would not be your motivation for keeping in touch.

    Fear not, the Lord can bend wills and heal all things.  And if he chooses to abuse his free will, then you already pointed it out, your Father, His Son, and the Holy Spirit will always be there, right in you.  How much more intimate can you get than that?  Be in peace in all that's going on.  Your husband will be amazed and this can help wake him up in the mistake he is making.  

  • I know exactly how you feel. I haven't spent a new years without my wife in 20 years but she worked midnights last night. I didn't send her a text or anything. I guess I've just gotten used to giving her space. I fought back a lot of tears too.

    We are not alone. True. And we will reap the rewards in heaven someday.

    "Behold, I am coming quickly, and My reward is with Me, to render to every man according to what he has done."

    Revelation 22:12

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