I couldn't do anything differently today that I haven't already been doing. These first days are tough because I'm running out of ideas at this point because it seems like I'm doing everything days in advance and since my husband and I aren't getting along he isn't really up for the element of surprise in our relationship right now. I had a really good plan for tomorrow's dare but we can't find a babysitter so I am going to have to come up with something new. The only thing is that I have completely stopped disagreeing with my husband about virtually everything to avoid the tension in the house and the only thing I could think of is to get a dog but honestly getting a dog to show my husband his needs are important to me seems extreme and although I am about the extreme since we just moved here and can't find a baby sitter any time we need to do anything if we want to go on vacation I doubt we will have a dog sitter. :\ I really wanted to take my husband away this weekend too because he's been complaining that I don't go anywhere with him alone anymore .. again the baby sitter thing.
I told my husband again today that I am committed to him and our marriage and I will continue to work on it even if he thinks I'm doing it for the wrong reasons... How could wanting to work on your marriage ever be for the wrong reasons anyway?? I think it's going to take a long time before we make any progress and I asked him again to just let me love him. I told him I don't expect anything from him but I would like it if he would just allow me to love him. I prayed for him today just like I do every day. I hope his heart can heal and we can come out of this much stronger than ever before, I know that I can allow for my heart to heal...
You are looking ahead......stop. Its fine to plan things with him, but it doesnt work very well if you look ahead to the dares. Each one has something that should apply in its own day. That could be why you do not have a babysitter now........but if you trust in the Lord, He will open something up for you to do. It may not be as big, but it would be something.
Oh, read the appendix too.
This is where love seeks to be creative, to be trusting in the Lord. Part of your frustration here is trying to please your husband. Remember, trust in the Lord, seek out His guidance. Sometimes it is the smallest things that get the best response.
If you are always going to the extremes then sooner or later you will be out of topping yourself!
As for your husband being concerned about not going anywhere. Be kind, Be loving and talk with him about the sitter situation. Work on solving that problem together. Being as one.
I did the same thing the first round. I was exhausting myself with "grand" gestures. I did not quite understand who I was "working" for or with then. I then realized in my exhaustion, that my idea of being "fruitful" and His are very different things. At that point, I had really grabbed ahold of Him...and He has lead me since. Keep pursuing Him in prayer, word, and worship...and He will guide you. I promise. you.