Today was a difficult day for me. Since my husband has very little interest in me right now its not like I can hug him and kiss him when he walks though the door because he makes it rather difficult. He works nights so comes home in the morning so this morning when he got home I greeted him at the door and I opened the door for him because he had his hands full. He asked what I was doing and I said that I heard the car door close so I wanted to open the door for him and left it at that. I had the perfect opportunity to tell him that I was glad that he was home and I missed it because I wasn't being truly attentive to what was going on because I was trying to help our daughter with something.
For tomorrow's dare I wanted to wash and vacuum his car but he has some meeting he has to go to for work and we only have 1 set of keys for that car.. I'm not sure how long the meeting is going to last but I am going to try and go ahead and accomplish that task for him anyway.. It's really the only thing I can do for him because I already do everything else the only thing my husband does is take out the garbage when I ask and I have been doing that as well.. I have actually already been doing a lot of the things that the dare book has for me to do in the early stages so I'm finding it difficult find new and inventive ways to do these things.
I feel discouraged today... There is always tomorrow
I wish I had my family around for some support. But I think that since I have no one here it will give me more room to strengthen my spiritual relationship.
It often is a GOOD thing that others aren't around at this time. Others' words and opinions can distract, influence you. Focus on the dares. Do them. Pray on them. Listen. Focus on HIM.
Pray upon your dares. Lead your heart to them through Christs wisdom.
Take some time to read the appendix on leading your heart... You will understand the more you lead your heart and seek out the wisdom of Christ, many good things can come from it.
Your story sounds a lot like mine!! My husband is very closed off from me right now and I'm feeling discouraged. I'm not reading forward to your other entries as I don't want to read ahead to the dares, but I hope that things are looking up for your and that your walk with God is strengthening. My prayers are with you!