Ok I just got the bundle. I purchased the bundle thinking my husband would do this with me. Between me ordering and it arriving we have been doing nothing but fighting. Actually I am not sure you can actually consider it "fighting" more like he isn't talking, so I am trying to play his game. I normally cater to him and seems I am always doing it, but I am at a point after ten years I feel over it. Hence why I am here doing the challenge. I am trying hard to remember that I need to put this in God's hands. I come from a broken past and currently feel broken and if I am honest I did find my self in an emotional affair two years ago and part of me wants that person back in my life. I am broken you see and I am struggling and fighting. I was going to make this private but decided I need to share because there may be someone out there like me who is struggling and broken. I am going to devote this 40 days, which is hard because he is not talking to me, which makes me not want to try. The emotional affair was only great because I had someone to listen and seemed to understand. All I really want is for the man I married and feel in love with to understand and listen to me like he use to. It has been a long time since I have sincerely felt loved from him. I am here because I am trying hard to make God my focus and all I can pray anymore is for his will to be done. I will make my steps and have faith that God will make his. So here is to day one, broken and not alone...just my father and I.
I think understanding that I have God no matter what is a good place to start. I am laying my marriage down and going to take some big steps and try to be how I use to be but different, better, because I will allow God to guide. I can not help but still feel broken. Anyone know Linkin Park "Faint" that is how I am feeling tonight! I pray it only gets better from here. I am going to change my music to Christian music and do some real homework and tomorrow is officially day 1! So tomorrow nothing said negative to my spouse....this should be easy being he is not talking to me! Good luck!
So changed to the Christian station and Matthew West's song "Day One" came on!
Here is a link - take a listen.
Continue to keep in mind this is a journey between you and Christ, not you and him. He will be used as a tool to mold you. do a dare a day no more, no less. for now, it is best just to do the dares by yourself, and not have him do them. This is between you and God. Have no expectations from him, at all. do not read ahead in the book, other than the appendix, especially about leading the heart.
Things often get worse before it gets better. But this serves purpose.
do not manipulate the dares to make them easier. Such as texting or calling when you are to talk in person.
Welcome. Post often for accountability.
do not justify the affair. If you haven't, repent for this affair and seek Christ's forgiveness. Then accept His forgiveness. And do not allow evil to tempt you with the memories of the affair.
Welcome Amandatru to our humble community. We are a broken people and Jesus is the glue. Try not to think anything negative about your spouse as well. I look forward to your progress.