Tues Aug 28

A loving wife chooses to be a flower among the thorns and respond pleasantly  -  Life is a marathon not a sprint.

When i woke up this morning God put on my heart the words "follow through" that was the first thought in my mind as my eyes opened.

Glorious day ( I have never used that word in my LIFE) God I love life!

Husband showed up first thing in the morning to pick up the dog. When I saw my husband i had this overwhelming anger come over me (how fitting, right? on this day of love is NOT irritable) I was upset that my husband just left the party on Sat and didn't say good bye to my dad or my sis (the host of the party). Husband asked me what was wrong and i said a quick prayer and He literally spit the words out of my mouth ..." My father loves you and he didn't understand why you left without saying good bye on Sat" husband said he assumed i was going to say "bye" for him ... (my husband is lost ?!)

I called Sean, i just needed a "word" ... this saved me ... he said " the tables WILL turn " ...

I went to work and wondered why I said what I had said, what's the point , right ?  Here's the point .... only God knows what he is doing ...

during the afternoon i get a huge text from husband - saying how sorry he was for not saying good bye at the party. How he hopes that I am not mad at him and that he cares very much what my family thinks of him. I covered him in love (per the dare) and told him how much we all love and miss him - then he told me how much he loved me. Which lead to him asking if he could come see me after boot-camp -  Oh man, after boot-camp my husband was at our house. He professed his love to me for over an HOUR - how he never stopped loving me, I am the only one for him, he loves me now more than ever (as he talked i felt like his "car" was finally catching up to mine , as Sean talks about in his journals : )  we talked about OW/ OM - we had a very open and truthful conversation, and it was very comfortable.... He even made a comment about moving back home - WOW!  Husband asked if we could host a BBQ this Sat for our friends  - I was so excited. We ate, walked the dog, kissed and then he said he didn't want to leave ... he didn't. In the morning he asked if he could come back again tonight. Tonight we are going to have dinner and hang out again. Before we left for work  --- the morning was filled with "I love yous" (Phew, there was ZERO FLIP FLOP - AMAZING GRACE !!!)

LOL - today I was joking with myself and God (we have some laughs) - I was saying wouldn't it be great if God could text us ... LOL

Love is not a fight, but it's worth fighting for

When my husband  left in the morning ... God said to me it's a test  = testimony , and so many around me need my story STAND! STAND! STAND!

Funny because my Dad called me around lunch and asked if i was ready to be happy,  and if I know what I am doing - and if i was going to file for separation / divorce  this week ... without hesitation I  STOOD! and said " I know what I am doing - I am standing for my marriage - I know it's a new concept for this "world" but I stand STRONG" ... My Dad sorta smiled, I could hear his smile on the phone ...

IT IS ALWAYS DARKEST BEFORE DAWN

Add margin; GOD, Scripture, Prayer, Gods will not mine, joy and love love love

Wrong motivations ; MY FLESH (selfishness) , EGO, temper, control