Beloved, I pray that in all respects you may prosper and be in good health, just as your soul prospers.
Monday, March 22, 2010 ----- Love Dare Day #16 --------- Day 16: Love Intercedes.
The three specific area's where I desire for God to work in my spouse's life and our marriage is:
1. Unity in our marriage; that no matter what difficulties and hardships come our way; to take our marriage vows seriously ----- for better or for worse, for richer or poorer, sickness or health; until by death we are parted.
2. For our finances; so we can get out of debt with the outstanding college loans that we owe.
3. For me to get a full time job that brings in an income to help pay the bills and added expenses.
This was a somewhat hard dare to complete. Mainly because at first I did not know where to start. Then I started thinking about the conversations that my wife and I have had over the past week.
First I prayed for her mother to be understanding of her situation and to be supportive of my wife. My wife lives with her mother now and says that it's like being 17 all over again. Her mom is constantly judging her and making her feel guilty. Then when she wants to talk about something her mom answers in an un-supportive, I told you so kind of way. I prayed that their relationship will get better and that her mom will begin to respect and treat her better. I can see it now because I did not respect and treat her right while we were living together. My wife cannot begin to heal while living in an environment that is as toxic as the one that I created in our house. Although I have changed I feel that she will not completely want to work on things until she has a chance to try life "on her own."
Second I prayed for my wife to find a job. She has been searching for the past month now and has had no success. I know that this is getting to her because with a job and temporary support payments she could try to get out on her own. I pray for this because I want her to be happy and to reclaim some of the independence and self-esteem that she lost because I tore her down.
Thirdly I prayed for her happiness. I know that the Lord is at work in our marriage and I will leave the outcome to him and time. In the meanwhile I just want her to find peace and happiness. Ultimately I would like us to be able to work on things and get back together. If that doesn't happen I just want her to be happy, she deserves that.