I woke up this morning & praised God, as I always do before rising, what I did next was different. I Thanked God for the beautiful world he has given to me. I usually ask him to give me something. I asked him what he wanted of me today. I asked him to show me his way & to reconise what I needed to change about my thinking so I can keep on rhis journey.
In two groups I attend we are working on Psalm 23. The journey I am on at the present moment brings me at the bottom of the valley, the only way out is with God. I am holding on to his word, listening, being still. When I do I can feel he is holding me & seeing me thru. I do not know how long this valley is but with his love & my faith I will make it thru to the light & the life he has waiting for me on the other side.
I am seeing my situation with my husband in a new light, I will not try to contact him today. I will pray for him, I am learning about a thing called a "Soul hole". I am filling it with Gods love, my husband could fill part of it the the truth is only God can make it full to the brim. I fell back into old patterns wanting my husbands love so bad that I gave so much of myself that I lost Linda. I will be praying for Gods guidance to find the missing pieces. I have grown so much already, I am excited about what the future holds for me, but....I will live in the moment.
I will greet people I see at work with a smile, I will take the time to let them know I care enough to at least say hello. I see you....
There are days I feel crazy with all the new feelings I feel, but everyday I pray for God to show me his way & as long as I remember to breath...I can see what he is showing me. I heard yesterday that old habits can take a year to totally become a part of our new lives, I understand now why this is not a 40 day journey, but a journey for a lifetime......
Linda... God bless you. Our prayers are with you.
Glad to see you are putting focus on you now ....... God will work on him if it's in his will.
This is the hardest, scariest thing I have ever done, I have always put others first, a fixer is what I'm told. I want to find myself, I want to be the Linda God wants me to be & I know she is inside of me, wanting to get out.....God will show me in his time..Thank you for the thoughts & prayers
I have had to let go of my wife and that was a hard thing to do. But I know she is in good hands if she reaches out to him and opens the door. Other then that I just had to let it go before it kills me.
I am so sorry. I know your pain, we will be so much better when the pain clears...its just hard to see that day right now...
Remember, it is that pain that will help mold you to be what God wants you to be. It may be hard to understand that right now, but when you get there it is a blessing like no other.