I am praying for answers to this dare. I want to call my husband, I'm just not sure if I should. A mutual friend said he talked to my husband after I did on Monday(day 5 love is not rude). My husband said the thought I was on drugs because I was so bubbly. This family friend also told me I should only write to my husband & not talk to him on the phone. I do not know how this can be done. I know our friend is very upset with my husband, he is a very spiritual man, my husbands mentor. He told me to hang on, not to give up because the reasons my husband is giving for the divorce are not the reasons you get divorced for. I told him I was doing the love dare & that is why I was in a better mood the other day. Unfortunatly or fortunatly our friend mentioned some the the ways my husband has been a little lax in behaving the way a christian husband is supposed to, he is very upset with the behaviors & things he has done to me. I guess it turned up some of the negative memories, I am not upset at my husband but at myself for allowing these things to go so far. So I am upset with myself.
I got a job yesterday, I start on monday, my son got a job I want to share the news with my husband, but I am affraid to, I'm thinking he wont send enough money to pay the bills & we have bills. Also to top things off I got the letter from the Army that says my husband changed his beneficiary on his life insurance policy. I have ran the emotion roller coaster today. I just feel so hurt, so much has happened that most people wouldn't dream of putting up with. I wish it was different. I am hurting, but I nkow God has me in his arms. That could be why I cry so much, because I am hurting & I know for the first time in my life, someone really cares, always has but now I can feel his love & believe in it. I am sad it took me so long to realize his love was this strong, its sad I wasted so much time looking for something that was already there. I will be alright, today is not over & tomorrow is a new day. I want the pain to go away but.....not until I learn & grow from it, only then do I want it to go. Like a cut, it hurts until it heals then you have a reminder of what happened but it is better....Thank you...I will pray & I am positive everything will work out just as God has planned. This is my season & I have a lot of weeding to do.....
I have to share this, we have 2 weeks old pups, 1 has a malformed front leg...she just stood up & took her first baby steps... I'm so happy I started crying, it was the most beautiful thing I have seen in a long time........I pray we all can be that strong, healed by the Lords hand & heart...God bless
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You are doing fine. You will learn something new everyday... And that will add to your journey and trust in Christ. Just stick with it.
thank you, your wife is a blessed woman....